Well I have a driving trip on Thursday, to go to the emdr. I am nervous about starting that even though I have alot of help and support.
I hope I will drive ok again. I hope I will not have the pre-driving jitters. I can use rational thought now. I do not know how often I will be doing the emdr. I will have to wait to find out. I will get my questions answered when I go. Afterwards, I will drive to pick up prescriptions.
I am hoping that the emdr will set me back on the anxiety. I have been having success, after success.
It has been a real blessing to my life. I will be ok on Thursday, but I will be a little worried when I have to drive home after the emdr. I will feel tired, and I willl feel out of sorts or so I've been told.
I am glad I have this place to come to for support. I found my cd case of relaxing music. I do'nt have to go looking for the really soothing cds. I will take sweets and I will take water. I will go for a mocha frappe afterwards.
I have been doing ok on driving. Thank you for all of your help, support, encouragement and hope. It has made a profound difference in my life. I do not want to what if myself to death.
I am as ready as I can be. Mabe all of the successes have paved the way for me to drive with the emdr sessions.
I am ready as I will ever be. I have had alot of good advice. I think the first session will be one of consulting. It is the unknown that that troubles me.
I have alot of help and support for the emdr. I can read the posts and feel better. I can read the posts on the anxiety and driving and feel better.
I am just feeling nervous. So I rant and vent. And I get it out. I think that really helped me to write about it. I got it out and I did better as a result. I can picture myself driving on the freeway without the anxiety.
I am afraid it will come back. I do not want it to. I want it to be all over with. I am used to setbacks. I have things I can do to make it better for me. I may be doing some more driving, I do not know yet.
This has been a rough year. I have read where people have been dealing with the anxiety for many years, so I count myself blessed. I wish I knew what started it. It just came out of nowhere. I do not know what triggered it. It was really bad.
I am afraid it will come back. I hate the anxiety. I have early morning anxiety. it comes every morning.For along time I was ok. And like the driving anxiety, I do not know what the early morning anxiety is all about. I need that to go away too. Hopefully the emdr will take care of this for me.
I want to manage my symptoms and not have my symptoms manage me.
Ok I guess that is enough for now. I am enough and I can do this. I have been doing this. And it has been blowing me away. I am going to be ok. I will use positive self talk so that it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy.
