whiteraven
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I am looking at used/new cars. Or, rather, I've been thinking of looking at them. Because I have really bad credit (a whole 'nother story), I had to find a reliable place to get a car that would help me with financing. Not an easy task.
So a girl at work suggested I call this one place and I looked them up online, putting in a pre-approval application. I was pre-approved, which I mostly think means "this person isn't destitute - or quite - so we'll drag her in here and see if we can sell her a car." They called me, I made and appointment, and I'm picking up the car tomorrow.
Oh yeah. I left some stuff out. :-) I spent 3 hours at the dealership, talking cars and financing and warranties and trying to keep my shit together. Seriously, I have NEVER felt the kind of anxiety I felt talking about getting a car. I physically *shook* while there and had to excuse myself to go to the bathroom and cry 3x. I tried texting 3 people for support and my sister-in-law finally responded. The anxiety made sense to me; I've been really struggling financially, but also struggling with a very unreliable car, so there have been a lot of ambivalent feelings surrounding even the search for a car.
But I think there's more. I've been having a lot of intrusive thoughts - I'm not good enough, I'm not allowed to have this because what if it's too nice? They have been frequent and, along with the anxiety, sometimes debilitating. I have had them before, but they have been so much more intense the last few days.
Any suggestions for managing the physical effects of anxiety?
So a girl at work suggested I call this one place and I looked them up online, putting in a pre-approval application. I was pre-approved, which I mostly think means "this person isn't destitute - or quite - so we'll drag her in here and see if we can sell her a car." They called me, I made and appointment, and I'm picking up the car tomorrow.
Oh yeah. I left some stuff out. :-) I spent 3 hours at the dealership, talking cars and financing and warranties and trying to keep my shit together. Seriously, I have NEVER felt the kind of anxiety I felt talking about getting a car. I physically *shook* while there and had to excuse myself to go to the bathroom and cry 3x. I tried texting 3 people for support and my sister-in-law finally responded. The anxiety made sense to me; I've been really struggling financially, but also struggling with a very unreliable car, so there have been a lot of ambivalent feelings surrounding even the search for a car.
But I think there's more. I've been having a lot of intrusive thoughts - I'm not good enough, I'm not allowed to have this because what if it's too nice? They have been frequent and, along with the anxiety, sometimes debilitating. I have had them before, but they have been so much more intense the last few days.
Any suggestions for managing the physical effects of anxiety?