Anxiety Takes Over

[Kton16]

Hey guys, I'm new here. I'm 19 and just got back into therapy and was diagnosed with CPTSD. My mom was very neglectful, and emotionally abusive. I don't have many memories of my childhood at all. Literally maybe 4 or 5 up until the age of 14. I still feel like there is something more there though, like she did something worse. Does anyone else experience a similar feeling? The anxiety day in and day out between therapy sessions is driving me crazy(er). I just went today to get meds that are supposed to help and was given geodon, clonodine, and klonopin. The geodon was given in a million samples to me since I have no health insurance and I haven't had time to get to the pharmacy yet for the other two. Would you believe geodon is 800.00 without insurance per month?! I guess I'm just looking for advice and to know someone else understands what I'm feeling

 

[Shan-Nav01]

Hey Kton! Welcome to the site.

I had a very similar situation, mum was neglectful and emotionally abusive, and I have no memories of under 11, and blurred ones of 11 - 14. I always used to think I was adopted as there's no photos of me as a toddler and that sort of age (when there's loads of my brother). I used to have bad anxiety, but that almost all went when I moved out - and my grades went up considerably as well!

I can't offer much advise, but I do fall into the category of someone who understands.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Did your doctor put you on all those meds at the same time? As in, did he prescribe them all to you for the first time?

 

[Kton16]

Yeah he did. I've been on meds before when I was hospitalized and we went through the ones that have worked and these were the ones they suggested. For anxiety and sleep and racing thoughts

 

[Deleted member 1860]

So you haven't been on these particular meds before?

Did your doctor take your blood pressure?

 

[Kton16]

I have been on clonodine before and geodon. Not klonopin. And I saw a NP but no she didn't take my blood pressure

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Ok I was concerned that you went on all three for the first time, that's all. I asked about blood pressure because clonodine can lower blood pressure, quite dangerously so it's important to have it monitored. I was on the smallest possible dose and it made me stagger around like I was drunk and I fell over in the shower, and this was even with monitoring.

 

[Kton16]

Have you been on klonopin? The first hope is that my anxiety will reduce enough so I can tolerate more in depth therapy

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Yes, I have. (I've been on all three, just not at the same time.) It works for a lot of people, but it was way too strong for me. I now take Ativan which isn't as long lasting, but I still have to take it very sparingly because I do experience negative effects from it.