Anxiety

[saraemerald]

I'm just trying to sort everything out now

 

[mama13]

The best thing I do is exercise, whatever form that is! Yoga, a good run, weights, kickboxing...and all with loud good music! Of course doesn't work in yoga, but it is honestly the only thing helping me through my panic attacks and anxiety. I prefer to run all by myself because no one is around. I am becoming very untrusting of people who I thought were once friends. In a small town, the moms all talked when my daughter got hurt. I really don't want to be around anyone except for a few people. I was such a happy person and now I just want to be alone. I am so sorry! The best thing is to find an outlet that helps and take it slowly.

 

[Yasukuni]

sounds like you had some self-destruction mode going on, a program that was installed into your mind and soul by the people around you if you started to 'act out'. When I was a child I had to be the perfect obeying child for my mother so she could live through me and I wouldn't protest when f*cked up things were happening because I had to be perfect for my mom to show that she was perfect. When I became a teenager I wanted to be my own person and I suddenly got a lot of abuse and scapegoating and started to destroy myself. They steered me in that direction too, ignoring my heavy drug-use and obvious signs of it, ignoring my accomplishments and good behaviour I still had despite that drug use, saying I probably couldn't finish highschool, beating me up right before important moments for my life, and always these moments were they would say 'Every house has a cross' and planting these ideas in my head that every family goes through this. It took me so many years to puzzle all these pieces together. I wish I wasn't too hard on myself in all those years. Thats important, take good care of yourself despite the confusion. I hope you can find your way through it all, take care

 

[saraemerald]

sounds like you had some self-destruction mode going on, a program that was installed into your mind a...

Thank you

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I experienced the same thing at a church we were going to. I understand so much of what you have been going through. There is a thread in discussion on Toxic Christianity that may help you. It is really a betrayal of your trust when you come down to it.

You were betrayed by a church. I survived this experience and am in a much better place than I used to be so take heart, you will recover from this sad and miserable situation if you are interested I recommend the thread to read.

 

[saraemerald]

I experienced the same thing at a church we were going to. I understand so much of what you have been goi...

Thank you so much. Someone can relate. Yay! I will definitely check it out.

 

[saraemerald]

I experienced the same thing at a church we were going to. I understand so much of what you have been goi...

I would like to read the thread

 

[Freedomfighter]

I feel like I need so much help right now. I am hurting and I have so much anxiety that when I go t...

Long time ago I have shed all unreasonable requests to treat bad people nicely. I will let bad people know exactly what I think of them and there are many rotten people throughout the day that I am forced to help in my job.

I can not believe at times that just for the sake of money I am expected to crawl up people's asses, won't do it.