Well, I gave my T her gift. It was awkward. We chatted for a bit. Then she gave me something. I was knocked for six. I didn't know what to say. I said to her that I had her gift in my car, and I was going to do the 'chicken' thing and leave it for her after she left. Well, I tried to say that, but mumbled a bit. She said something like I better not have bought her a live chicken, because she wouldn't know what to do with it. That made me smile. She broke that awkwardness. She has a great way of doing that.
I gave her the card I wrote for her and she read it and put it up on her bookshelf. I rushed back down to the car and got it out and went back and gave it to her. I think she liked it. She laughed. But it was really awkward. I texted her after and said I feel panicky and guilty when someone gives me something, and I apologised if I seemed weird about it, but I loved what she had given me and thanked her for it.
I don't know, I had a bad feeling she was going to turn around and say sorry, she can't take my gift. I would have died, absolutely died. But she didn't. And at least I made her laugh :)
Maybe next year I will feel comfortable enough to just give it to her. We'll see :)