Would like 3 Unisom do anything?? I'm waiting for my doctor to refill ambien. If she won't, I'll have bad nighttime panic attacks. And this is also something I am not hassling her on this week because I am already at the end of my self-advocacy rope with trying to get some follow-up to a few abnormalities found on an MRI, including a spinal lesion that the neurosurgeon didn't mention or show me (found out later because I really didn't trust the clinic and asked for all records). To make a long story short, I'm re-triggered in ways I can't articulate, don't need my doctor thinking I'm "crazy" because I want to be taken seriously if I have a spinal lesion, and honestly I have this icky part of myself resurfacing...like if I can't get ambien refilled I will just have to start drinking again because I can't tolerate my life and nighttime is the worst (I've been sober for nearly two decades...I will wreck my career and die if I start again because it was very bad, but things are feeling very bad, like I just want to die...I feel so powerless and at the whim of a dysfunctional clinic and my insurance company).
Anyway, melatonin does nothing. Ambien does almost nothing, but helps. I also probably need to call my doctor but I want her to focus on getting some info or referrals regarding the bad MRI. It's like they really wanted to find nothing, call it "chronic pain", and medicate me for life. The radiologist noted a couple congenital malformations, likely causing cysts. And NO FOLLOW UP. I can't deal with it....I have done all I can (send messages, check on another clinic and waiting for images from first clinic, etc...I'm just at a stand still waiting for the right doctor to give a shit or know what to do).
I don't care if extra unisom isn't safe either. I'll take any ideas because they all beat vodka or mouthwash.
Anyway, melatonin does nothing. Ambien does almost nothing, but helps. I also probably need to call my doctor but I want her to focus on getting some info or referrals regarding the bad MRI. It's like they really wanted to find nothing, call it "chronic pain", and medicate me for life. The radiologist noted a couple congenital malformations, likely causing cysts. And NO FOLLOW UP. I can't deal with it....I have done all I can (send messages, check on another clinic and waiting for images from first clinic, etc...I'm just at a stand still waiting for the right doctor to give a shit or know what to do).
I don't care if extra unisom isn't safe either. I'll take any ideas because they all beat vodka or mouthwash.