Asking For Help?

[Hashi]

I've just seen this thread, and I'm so sorry for how you're feeling. I can only agree with the replies already here and add my own good wishes.

I'm glad this doctor has taken action. That's the first time I've heard of head lice doing someone a favour (sort of)! What a strange world this is.

Take good care of yourself, Nadia.

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((((Nadia)))))))))))))))))))
I hope you are having a better time of it.
Just thinking of you,
Rain

 

[Red Feather]

Here I am again.:cry:

Thanks all for your posts you made already on this thread. I am reading them over again. I am having these thoughts again. Everytime I stop speaking to my mother. And now I haven't got a T yet again. I don't want to end up in the hospital. I don't know how to talk about this. Just want to dissapear.

 

[Ice_Fire]

(((((Nadia))))) I don't understand the system where you are, but is there any way of being fast-tracked to getting a new T? Is it public or private sector? I'm kind of glad you haven't got that particular T, but you need to find someone ASAP. Any counselling charities in Germany? I know there are in the UK.

(((((Big hugs)))))

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((((((Nadia)))))))))))))))))

I understand not wanting to end up in the hospital again, it's something I run through my head each time I hit a low in my depressive cycle and the ideation thoughts become so loud I cannot think straight.

You said this happens each time you stop speaking to your mother, I'm guessing here but I imagine that it is because you are feeling even more alone. Nadia, please keep posting, remember that you have gone through these feelings before and come out the other side.

Sending you peace and healing thoughts,
Rain

 

[JustBe]

Thinking of you Nadia and listening with hope.

 

[Red Feather]

Oh thanks IceFire, Srain and Movin'On. Srain what you wrote has helped me a lot. I don't know how to talk about it with someone. Fr. W my social worker was here I started crying when we talked about my T. I couldn't tell her about the SI. I was thinking about going to Fr. R at the crisis center. I don't know how to talk to her about it either. But she is somebody I know more.

I am waiting for a T that P-no recommended to me. I am waiting for her to call back. I am also just so scared to talk to her. What if I'm the problem and I can't work with her either. What if the problem is me and I just shut down.

I wrote to my old T about it too, but couldn't send it. I miss her, she always helped me sort my thoughts out. In general I find that I am having really difficulties communicating to people lately. I realized that I am probably making the issue with my T so big, and it is so hard for me, because I wrote her my whole trauma story. I think that is why it's so hard.