Sufferer At Three

[atthree]

Hello,
The tittle tells when the trauma happened. Was told to "Just forget about it' and I did until another traumatic event happened in my 40's. Talking to a neighbor, she mentioned she majored in psychology, so I asked why did I behave the way I did. When I confronted about watching a traumatic event I could not remember seeing it until some weeks later. Now It seemed I was lying. She responded without hesitation,"You have PTSD, something traumatic happened in your life." thought to myself, "No, I would remember"

 

[SeanCharles]

Hello and welcome to forum! I can empathize with you because I buried my own childhood trauma until I had a rather triggering situation suddenly bring it all back. I know I have found wonderful people here and I am glad you found the forum while sorry you're here too.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Welcome!

 

[atthree]

Thank you, I had an anxiety attack, realizing it was triggering a mental block of things I should have remembered. If I get pissed off (not remembering) at myself, I remember but its to late and unacceptable. The Incredible Hulk syndrome, I call it. Remembering teachers hating me for not doing well on tests (stressful). One even pulled me to the side and said,"You know this...."

 

[macca]

I found I had PTSD in a similar fashion - I was triggered into a panic attack which kind of unlocked things.

Welcome to the forum!

 

[intothelight]

Hi Atthree,

Welcome to the forum!

As you read, you will find that memory loss is not uncommon among people who experience traumatic events. Sometimes the memories come back, other times just fragments and sometimes they are never recovered. Personally, I am missing large blocks of time in my life and I use to be really bothered by the memory loss, but I also wanted to live well in the present so I had to learn to accept that some of these things may never come back.

Find a good therapist and the tools that work best for you. PTSD can be treated, even with memory loss. I hope you find the information and support here helpful.

Take care.

Debbie

 

[atthree]

Thank you, if it wasn't for the guilt of not remember, then remembering "I saw that.." I still would not of known the why.

Honestly, I believe the world is a better place with the more PTSD survivors.