Auditory Flashbacks?

[Adrienne12]

I read the thread for auditory hallucinations and it wasn't quite what I am experiencing. Most people say they hear screaming of their name or yelling etc. While I have experienced those....the kind that is happening now is different. It happens a lot when I am tired and starting to fall asleep.

It scares the hell out of me. I will hear what those men said to me. It's inside my head and it's loud. It's word for word and the voices are theirs. I will hear different things they said to me during the attack. If I am falling asleep....It wakes me up instantly. And their voices seem deeper than they did then but I still know it's them.

I am afraid to bring it up with therapist as I don't want her to think I am "hearing voices.". The last thing I want is to end up in some hospital.

 

[Abbi]

I think we have to be honest with our therapist, the good/bad/ugly, despite our fears. You are in pain and your T is the person in who's care you have placed yourself. At a minimum they deserve full information from us. I know it can be scary, but if we are controlled by a fear to the point of withholding information from our health/mental health care providers that becomes self-defeating behavior.

This forum can provide you some good information, loads of support, but your T is the one that can take your information, with your history, their interactions with you face to face....get my point.

No one likes the hospital but don't let that fear control you and your ability to help yourself. Plus my T's have never freaked out when I tell them I hear my ex's footsteps and the creaking of the hardwood floors AND know the patterns of creaks enough that I know where he is walking. By the way we now live a few hours apart, I no longer live in a house with hardwood floors, etc. I hear him call my name...its usually as I start to drift off to sleep, I think or maybe I am asleep...cant really tell.

Get out of your head and just give them the info and let them help you to the best of their ability, which does require good information.

 

[Adrienne12]

I just want to make sure it's part of the PTSD and I'm not going crazy. Thanks, Abbi. I will bring it up to the therapist.

 

[raye4]

I've had that issue myself but only on a few occasions but for me I actually make statements that my abusers have used on me and once there out of my mouth or thought of as a response to a new conversation--It freaks the crap out of me and I even sit and think on it for awhile. Nobody is crazy with PTSD!!!!!!! We all need to remember this no matter how crazy we feel and if we have the right Dr.'s they know we're not crazy either! So do me a favor and make yourself truly SMILE today--think of something funny in your head or something that you wish you would've said back when you hear those voices/statements!!!!:)

 

[Geiger]

Hearing voices actually prompted me to go get some needed help, I am glad I did. I am now on meds for P.T.S.D. which are just beginning to work, the voices are muffled now. After a volunteer check in at a "Lakeside" mental health clinic I had my diagnosis and meds. It got so bad for me I was sleeping with a knife, or a screwdriver thinking someone would break in to hurt me. I am 6'2" 200lbs and studied Brazilian Ju-Jitsu for 5-6 years in Colorado, so I do not scare easily. I also thought I heard people in my attic, outside my window, etc. I seem normal in every other way, (at least I think I do) and for those I used to stigmatize as hearing voices I never felt I "fit" the part because I did not scream at them, nor them at me, they didn't even talk to me only to each other about me and what they were going to do. Tell your therapist, they are there to help you. :)