Shadowofdoubt
Silver Member
Hi all. I came to this forum looking for info about PTSD as I have been in an online gaming "relationship" with a guy who, at the beginning of "getting to know" each other shared some of his personal history and the fact that he had PTSD. After 2 months of an in game "marriage" he "divorced" me. In 3 weeks We ended up back gaming again. This included him and I being in a team speak channel together quite often (like a Skype call). Sometimes just us and sometime a couple other gamers, also. But it happened again..the shut out. Ignoring, avoiding, deleting friendship and contacts...hurtful stuff.
It's a bit hard to understand, but gaming is his "escape", and I guess I bring too much of real life into it. Plus the fact that I just might like him more than he ever did me, and that, along with me knowing what I know about him, is too much for him to take. Add to the fact that the recent game we've been playing is very anger provoking to him and keeps his stress level high.
So, I came hear, to learn about PTSD and to get support. I have learned a tremendous amount of "stuff" and have had a sort of revelation in the process. I've been keeping a diary so won't get into it all here, but there's a good chance I'll be hanging around a while...wanted to say Thank You to Anthony and Nicolette for maintaining this site as it's helped greatly to read of others who have gone through similar experiences, the advice and support offered is amazing. I'm still licking my wounds and trying to detach/recover from my friends latest shut down. Still will be here for him but I hope to let go of this emotional burden and take care of myself. Thanks to all supporters and sufferers out there for sharing of yourself. :)
It's a bit hard to understand, but gaming is his "escape", and I guess I bring too much of real life into it. Plus the fact that I just might like him more than he ever did me, and that, along with me knowing what I know about him, is too much for him to take. Add to the fact that the recent game we've been playing is very anger provoking to him and keeps his stress level high.
So, I came hear, to learn about PTSD and to get support. I have learned a tremendous amount of "stuff" and have had a sort of revelation in the process. I've been keeping a diary so won't get into it all here, but there's a good chance I'll be hanging around a while...wanted to say Thank You to Anthony and Nicolette for maintaining this site as it's helped greatly to read of others who have gone through similar experiences, the advice and support offered is amazing. I'm still licking my wounds and trying to detach/recover from my friends latest shut down. Still will be here for him but I hope to let go of this emotional burden and take care of myself. Thanks to all supporters and sufferers out there for sharing of yourself. :)
