Bad bad day

[WAgirl]

Struggling today hard. Out of nowhere? I don't know anymore, I can't seem to stay right or predict anything. I don't see ever getting back to where I was. I wish I could stuff it all away again, none of this feels worth a damn.

 

[MrMoonlight]

I'm with you man. I'm always questioning with my therapist if it's worth opening all these things locked away. You are brave and so strong for working through this junk. It's probably the hardest thing we'll ever do so remember to give yourself a little credit and a few attagirls . Sorry you are feeling this way today.

 

[MrMoonlight]

I hope today is a bit brighter for you @WAgirl . We are thinking about you.

 

[WAgirl]

Thanks for the support, it's appreciated. I'm trying but I don't know.

 

[MrMoonlight]

I know it's hard when you are stuck in the "tar". Hopefully you have a couple 'tools' to help you through? I'm stuck myself, have been for a few days.I plan on being in and looking at nature tomorrow to help.

Anyway we are 100% here for you. If you would like to talk about real stuff or just BS im here.

 

[WAgirl]

I really appreciate your help. I'm trying, but I just don't know how much I have left in the tank.

 

[MrMoonlight]

I'm sorry wagirl, please try to hang in there. Do you feel like talking about what is going on with you the last several days? I'm kinda in the one foot in bed one foot out state of being right now. Giving myself lots of downtime in soft cotton pj's and crisp white sheets but still showering keeping up with hygiene, dressing for the day and working on myself through this site. I'm trying to introduce positive things in hopes of it helping in the short term.

Do you mind me asking how you have been? I know you are feeling really tired which makes everything else almost impossible. Are you safe right now @WAgirl ?

 

[WAgirl]

I'm safe for now. I'm just at the so messed up point, a crossroads. I'm trying with my therapy but in the moment, right now I can't see it and all I want is relief I'm so close to done with this mess.

 

[MrMoonlight]

I'm so glad to know you are safe, I care about you, we care about you. I don't know the details of what caused yours ptsd but what you feel and think is absolutely normal for someone with our trauma history. Somehow that always made me feel a little better, or I felt I made sense for the first time in a long time.

Are you able to take some time regarding the decision you have to make? Maybe lighten your burden and talk with someone you trust about the situation if you haven't already.