Bad therapy session

[Scarlet13]

Have you ever had a bad therapy session with a good therapist?
So it was bad today.
I started out telling her that I have attachmemt feelings (love) for her, which I have said before.
We are specificly working on me developping a secure attachment with her.
She asked if I feel like I can have closeness with people outside of her which is and has always been difficult for me, but something I want.

I wanted to explore this but the session just did not flow.
I felt just sooo tired and worn out.
I just moved houses and feel displaced and uprooted which we talked about as well.
It was just a lot of start and stop and very hard to connect with her.

I have had sessions where we are just so connected.
This of course causes anxiety and a feeling of loss when therapy does not go well.
Has anybody else experienced the bad therapy session with a good T?

 

[blackemerald1]

Yes and it feels distressing. It is distressing but I try and remember there were far more good and productive sessions than the few that did not go well.

I also try and keep it in perspective. I don't think there is anyone in my world who has not had a bad day and sometimes I just have to accept that I am part of the world too and will have my off days and so will my T.

You know that you were exhausted from the millions of other things crowding your mind before and after that session so try and go easy on yourself.

If it is really disturbing you - are you allowed to email her and let her know how you are feeling atm?

 

[EveHarrington]

...I think if someone is with a therapist long enough then having a bad session is inevitable given that two humans are involved and novo is perfect.

 

[Wendell_R]

Yes, this has happened to me where the picture in my head of what would happen didn't happen. Or the time my really good therapist thought she would play a game with one of my young parts and I was completely overwhelmed.

Without diminishing your experience that you had a bad session, maybe learning how to see that last week didn't go so well and then moving forward can be good practice for having closeness in relationships outside of therapy.

 

[Scarlet13]

I am just so triggered by this now.
I had insomnia last night.
I laid awake wondering if my time with her is over
Why do I do this? Why do I have to be so dramatic?
I hate the attachment feelings and I told her that, but she brings me into them and says they are necc to do the work.
I think I need a phone sess with her, but don"t want the dead air

I just struggle with trust and I just want to leave her, but at the same time I am afraid of loosing what we had.

This is why I hate this attahment bullshit.

 

[Wendell_R]

Hang in there! Do you hate the attachment itself, or do you hate the other feelings that attachment brings up in you?