Been A Really Scary Last Few Weeks

[Deleted member 20280]

I won't be on much but a quick update. I have fallen off the edge as my triggers have gone from emotional irrational fear to vivid nightmares and dreams. I have been in Intensive Care on Life Support for a while over the last six weeks after going on a binge 500mmls of alcohol im 100 millilitres of blood can kill you and no one on record has ever survived a larger count. Mine was 488 !!. the worst part was finding out on monday my body is so used to this much that was not the reason.

Due to my fall and subsequent head injury I in fact suffered a major brain heamorage and had to be kept on life support.

Back in therapy now with the NHS after losing my Job.

Laurie71

 

[bell]

I'm sorry to hear that, @laurie71, but I'm glad that you're still here on this side of the grass.

 

[anthony]

Sounds like a shitty last couple of months Laurie... I hope things get better for you in the near future.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Thanks guys have challenged the hospital as to why I was not told of this at the time. They have no answer and refer me to my GP will make appointment to him am tomorrow. Feel very let down as this could still be life threatening due to the symptoms I am having all the time at the moment.

 

[Promicarus]

I'm a little confused--are your symptoms PTSD related, or related to your head injury? I realize both can urgently require treatment--but if they're related to your head injury, especially, I hope you can get in immediately--and it might be a good idea to go to the emergency room, instead of waiting.

I've noticed that your last post was Sep 5, here, how are you doing now? Well, I hope.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Thanks Promicarus for the contact. My symptoms are PTSD related the after effects were the Head Injury. That has caused headaches and partial memory loss over the last couple of months. The NHS have not been held liable for not telling me as my EX! GP. I have now moved out of the area to help myself re-engage with society as I now "WANT" to heal and no longer "NEED" treatment. Due to my breakdown after such a long time triggering (Due Mainly to the Jimmy Saville Enquiry in the main". You see this was the primary trigger for me due to my interactions with him as a child.

My PTSD is under greater control at the moment as I have re-engaged with the memories of my past on a physical as well as a psychological side. I have proverbially "Put my head in the lions mouth"....... I have taken myself back to the abuses in full to further help myself and am facing those old demons head on. I have found it easier to forgive than I ever thought I would. It has been nearly two months now and I am getting stronger day by day. Still triggering and having flash backs on an almost daily basis but using my grounding techniques to full effect and finding that I can bring myself back to normality very quickly. Thanks again for the contact.

Kind regards

Laurie71

 

[Promicarus]

So glad to hear from you, and learn that you're head injury at least isn't life threatening, and that you even find yourself able to pursue trauma therapy. With those kinds of deficits in addition, that's a real triumph, and I hope you give yourself credit!

I'm still triggering and having flashbacks daily, too--so we have that in common. But it sounds as though with the tools you've learned, you're at least one step in front of me, at most times.

I'm not familiar with the "Jimmy Saville Enquiry in the main", but I'll look into it online. Is there anything you can tell me, by way of reference?

Thanks for getting back to me, and feel free to post to my profile at any time. Glad you're back in the fight!

Regards
P