Been Lurking, Ex Brit Mil, Ex Bosnia

[Jibby]

Anglesache, you were a rose amongst thorns here for me personally. So big thanks. Appreciated.

Just as closure and update on all of the above I'm doing well really. I finished the NHS sessions in Aug which clocked up about 15/16 sessions in the end and have a follow up this month six weeks post last session and have an open offer from NHS to return any time. Just ask GP. Can't complain at that, and not sure I can fault NHS personally; hopefully sign of things to come for ex-military peeps in the future.

CBT did help alot. Not ever going to change the past obviously, which they make clear, and as far as nightmares are concerned there's not much that can be done on it obviously. Sleep is sleep. Dream control will make somebody big time rich one day, but not today or tomorrow eh?? :) The therapy was more about how it impacts, and how to live with that and change affects.

Biggest thing it did though was for me to talk to missus and make her aware. Nearly half the battle in my case because she understands now better that I was being a dick for a reason, not just because I am a dick (even though I am!! :) ).

So today and yesterday and for the past few weeks have been working at it and it's ok.

Thanks to all here for letting me check in through bad and good times. Not out of the woods yet and every day brings it own things, but now given some tools to live with it that seem to be working okish.

 

[Sarg]

Excellent, excellent, thread! Jibby, you've gotten fantastic advice above. Wish that someone had told me the above about forty years ago! Might not have fallen face down in the cow pies so often.

Sarg

 

[Anglesachse]

Good to see somethng has helped you Jibby cocker.

Like Sarg said, it would have been nice to get the advice from the like minded years ago, but hey, it has all worked out pretty peachy so far, well more or less LOL

But remember it is a bumpy road, real roller coaster shit, good times and bad times. Prepare for the worst and hope for the best is all we can do, and with that we can go a long way.

.................. big thanks. Appreciated............

No worries cocker. Like all of us on here, if we can help we are glad to have said something. You are more than welcome, and er.....the bill is in the post ;)

We got your back, Hang tought Brother.

 

[Wagon]

Hey Jibby, missed this thread for awhile. Big welcome.

Peace
Wagon

 

[Jibby]

Thanks guys.

The advice here is diamond, and just as importantly for me after keeping gob shut for years because I thought I just needed to get a grip and was just being a muppet how often I read what you guys feel, think, do etc and think "f*ck that's me. I do that. I think like that" helps you realise it's not just self acting like a muppet for no reason.

I didn't get off to a great start here, I like others I guess get irrationally angry and sometimes posting on a cocktail of stella artois 12 cans of and temazepam with the mess in my head I looked for a fight cos it's easy to do on the internet on top of irrational "f*ck you" to anyone even those trying to help. You guys gave it me straight as we did back in the day, sowed a seed how I came across but best of all moved on from it. Some civvies need to learn what we learned. You go head on, but next day it's a new day.

And yeah, I know am not out of the woods by any means with regards condition and treatment. It will always be there but this year of treatment has given me some breathing space to re-org and tools to work with when it rears it's head next time.

Like you guys said. I wish I'd had this advice back in '95/'96. Not that I'd have listened but it would have placed my boot on the first step of a journey of living with this. But hey ho. Better late than never. :) I hear you.

 

[Zipperhead]

If we don't have each others backs, who will. You remember that steroid creep 3 bunks down? Couldn't stand him? But you had his back, didn't you? You're right, civi's will never understand this. That's why I'm glad I'm not one.