I have lots of pain and don't really know what it's about, though back pain reminds me of at least one scary experience. I don't know how my past. abuse or medical trauma connects to my pain exactly but I went from feeling nothing to like suicidal intolerance of pain at times. I like the suggestions above and don't have much to add, but I've found greater need to like collect up and store positive body experiences, like I'm adding good feelings to my body..even if I can't always avoid pain. I can unravel when in lots of pain. I feel powerless, I curl up with a knife (closed, not open blade...I DON'T recommend this but it explains how unsafe I feel). I've been taking some individual Pilates lessons (very gentle) and some yoga, walking, etc. when I can because, for me, I need to know that I can also feel strong and experience new body sensations...to counteract feelings of being stuck or trapped. It's like I'm gradually re-writing my body's memories and experience through my trauma therapy and collecting good experiences. I still tolerate pain terribly, but I need more good experiences to help me not get totally sucked under. Sorry you are hurting (though I'm posting late...hope things are much better) and I hope you have lots of time released from that pain, and days full of good feelings.
