Breaking Bad

[rainydaze]

I've been watching Breaking Bad from the start of the show. The first episode of this season (the finale season), I had a mini-flashback. The next few episodes I was fine. However, then the content of the episodes started triggering me to a chilling level. It was a level of disassociation/flashbacking and lack of reality that i haven't experienced for years.

Tonight is the show's finale. The show is so excellently done that I have put up with these symptoms for the sake of watching the plot follow through to its ends. I know I will watch tonight's episode, and it will be an intense episode (as it is the final one). I will watch this knowing what it will do to me. Am I crazy or what? I don't understand how I could possibly be willing to induce such symptoms in myself. Before Breaking Bad, I would have NEVER considered it an option to subject myself to such discomfort and confusion.

Am I mental??? Has anyone else ever felt this way about something?

 

[Venator]

I do the same thing for Law and Order: SVU!

Also regarding Breaking Bad... let's face it, we all like a well told story! I think it's kind of normal to want more even if it hurts. Maybe it's forcing you to cogitate on things in a way that is overall positive, but hurts now? Law & Order: SVU does that for me.

 

[rainydaze]

Maybe it's forcing you to cogitate on things in a way that is overall positive, but hurts now?

Watching the evolution of Skyler has made me feel sane. In the beginning she was this strong, assertive woman who didn't put up with bull. Behind her back, things were going on--bad things. When she finally put the pieces together, she stayed that strong woman. She left the situation. She was sucked back in because her perpatrator had something to hold over her head--her children. In the best interest of her children, she made little concessions that led to her forgetting who she once was. To keep herself and her children safe, she agreed to follow Walt's direction. After doing so for a time, she forgot the reality of the situation.

Most people can't understand that this is conceivable--that a woman who was once strong, assertive, and smart became a weak and blinded sheep. BB explains how this can happen very well.

And that is just the start. So yes, I think you may be right. It allows me to understand how things in my life happened. I see parts of myself in Jesse, Skyler, and yes, even Walt.

 

[Venator]

I am so complete now..