stevie_k_2018
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I need help. I am going through a
really painful breakup....well, they are all painful. I recently found out that he cheated.
I had a very strange response to the news. I was fine until I went to bed and then a flash of light in my mind, my entire body started trembling, especially my thighs. I felt pinned to the bed. It lasted for 10 - 20 minutes maybe...I was in bed, in the dark paralyzed so I'm not sure how long.
During this time I had a flash/memory of a recurring nightmare that I used to have as a little girl. I forgot that I used to have the dream but it was so recurring as a little girl that I wrote a short story of the dream.
Pretty disturbing stuff coming out of my young brain, thinking about it now. I have been told that I have a vivid imagination.
I was physically, emotionally and mentally abused as a kid by my stepfather and my mother. I think I may have been sexually abused by my Stepfather but I do not have a clear recollection. All I know is that I feared him extremely and was repulsed by him. I was forced to call him Dad. I do not have many memories from my childhood. I was the only girl . At night my mother worked while my stepdad would go to the bar after work, come home drunk and mean. I took care of my infant brother, I also had two stepbrothers. Not a good time in our lives.
My reason for being on here is that the recurring dream is rearing its ugly head. I used to dream that the my stepfather's head was on the body of a snake. I was walking up a dirt driveway to an old farm house and the stepfather/snake was looming in a flower bed of yellow gladiolas, waiting to bite me and kill me.
really painful breakup....well, they are all painful. I recently found out that he cheated.
I had a very strange response to the news. I was fine until I went to bed and then a flash of light in my mind, my entire body started trembling, especially my thighs. I felt pinned to the bed. It lasted for 10 - 20 minutes maybe...I was in bed, in the dark paralyzed so I'm not sure how long.
During this time I had a flash/memory of a recurring nightmare that I used to have as a little girl. I forgot that I used to have the dream but it was so recurring as a little girl that I wrote a short story of the dream.
Pretty disturbing stuff coming out of my young brain, thinking about it now. I have been told that I have a vivid imagination.
I was physically, emotionally and mentally abused as a kid by my stepfather and my mother. I think I may have been sexually abused by my Stepfather but I do not have a clear recollection. All I know is that I feared him extremely and was repulsed by him. I was forced to call him Dad. I do not have many memories from my childhood. I was the only girl . At night my mother worked while my stepdad would go to the bar after work, come home drunk and mean. I took care of my infant brother, I also had two stepbrothers. Not a good time in our lives.
My reason for being on here is that the recurring dream is rearing its ugly head. I used to dream that the my stepfather's head was on the body of a snake. I was walking up a dirt driveway to an old farm house and the stepfather/snake was looming in a flower bed of yellow gladiolas, waiting to bite me and kill me.
