Breathe

[littleg]

scared stressed compressed- feel constant judgment of every action, yet somehow completely alone.
I have survived retraumatizing emotional/phys recently but have no one to talk to. Therapy every few weeks doesn't help the days of panic I am frozen and loose to fear. If I have no one did I survive?

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum :)

I think you survived, otherwise you would not be here. Asking for help, support and comfort. We are good at that here. :)

 

[littleg]

Thank-you, truly.

 

[littleg]

This was very difficult for me to do, but I'm glad I finally did. :) Thank-you for making me feel welcome.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Littleg,

Welcome to the PTSD Forum. This is one place where you don't have to feel so alone. I hope you find the information and the support of the members here helpful.

Wishing you peace.
Debbie

 

[DogMa]

:D Hi Littleg! I'm new too, The couch is comfy and there's lots of shoulders here when you need them

 

[littleg]

Many thanks! I live in the home , my home, again where some trauma has occurred and I get so terrified and frozen and feel surrounded by those involved and any people actively hating me. Even typing this is scary. I feel I have no walls.

 

[atl22]

Welcome to the Forum, littleg.

You will find many kind, wise, giving, and helpful people here. I know that this place has saved me a few times.

 

[littleg]

I apologize, some moments are just awful.

 

[BigBear]

Therapy every few weeks doesn't help the days of panic I am frozen and loose to fear. If I have no one did I survive?

Therapy can make it feel harder. It does help however, if your therapist really understands PTSD. Not all do. If there were someone near to you, they could see it helping long before your do!

feel constant judgment of every action, yet somehow completely alone.

As far as I can tell, this is VERY often the nature of the beast. In many cases, it can be the sufferers mind doing it too them and not direct attacks. That shouldn't keep you from asking for (and expecting) special treatment. You just can't expect others to harm themselves to help you (and no I don't think that you are doing that, just warning because it can be easy to go there...)

Take it as easy as you can here! Lean on us as much as possible. Let your level of comfort dictate how far you reach out to us. Trying to force too much is likely to be detrimental.

Glad you are here!

Bear

 

[littleg]

Really? That sounds reassuring, and helps ease the pressure. Thank you. I can see how it is wonderful on here. Such loving kindness to others. I write because I am scared and reaching out, then feel ashamed and wrong and apologize. You have been so compassionate. It makes such a difference having people actually there for you. Wow.

 

[littleg]

Thank-you. I don't have anyone right now to talk to except my therapist, and I don't think that helps much. I just hope I don't say anything too nuts or that makes anyone hate me.