Bringing Memories Back: Good or Bad?

[Elly Greenwood]

I was raped over 20 years ago and worked hard to put it out of my mind. But every year on the anniversary I attempt suicide. I think it's time to deal with the trauma but now I can't remember it. Any advice? Would it be bad or good to a back those memories?

 

[blackdove]

So sorry to hear that as it must be so scary for you so much of the time. Dealing with the trauma is maybe not a decision you can make without a close theraputic relationship. If it was me maybe I would book an appointment with a highly recommended therapist on the next anniversary day and that might be a way to start a new annual anniversary. otherwise, definately don't leave that day empty and don't be alone. I'm sure you are in the right place by being here because I have found this forum a really great thing for me since joinly a few days ago. Others here will have much more insight than I will into the issue you have raised. Welcome :-)

 

[Luthien]

Hi Elly.
I blocked out a rape, completely repressed it to the point it was as though it had never happened. Remembering it has been awful for me. I don't know though, maybe it is what you need to do to be able to move on.
For me, I think I would have been better off never remembering. However, I wasn't in a safe controlled environment actively trying to remember so that I could heal either...I was just bombarded by an event I had no knowledge of. It was pretty rough, though that rape isn't the cause of my PTSD. If you are going to try to remember, I recommend being in a safe place, and having someone with you like a therapist who can help you if it gets too hard.

Take care, and good luck.

 

[shadow-light]

The way I see it repressed memories are never really "gone" they are there even if we cannot access them...and eventually they will come back.

It's probably better to retrieve these memories on your terms, in a safe environment and with the guidance of someone who knows what they are doing.