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Hey everyone.
I discovered this website a few months ago but have been a bit reluctant to sign up as I am easily triggered. As I start a new phase of therapy with a specialist, I have realized how lonely and misunderstood I feel by "normal people". So I am giving this a shot.
I am a 26 year old British, Christian woman living in California, U.S.A with my husband, his family, a darling pooch and an angry, demented cockatiel (he is great for my nerves lol :tup: ) Currently I am unemployed. Partly because I am going through immigration (groan) but I think even if I had an opportunity to go out into the world and get a career, with my mental health the way it is, I wouldn't be doing it. I have a lot of anxiety fueled guilt and shame over not being able to contribute financially to our household. I also have a 6 (almost 7) year old daughter who is not in my care.
I have been in mental health services since around the age of 12 and had my first hospitalization in an acute adolescent ward at age 14. I have been inpatient 9 times since then.
I have had CBT, DBT and general talk therapy to try and untangle myself from the crippling aftermath of childhood trauma and other trauma that has happened to me later in life. These therapies really haven't even begun to permeate the symptoms or the mess. Just recently I have started working with a trauma specialist.
I am pretty symptomatic and right now drowning in ptsd crap, probably increased by actually working on this stuff in therapy and bringing it to the forefront. I also have a lovely array of comorbid disorders.
I have been on a cocktail of "medications" since my early childhood with very little success and feel thoroughly let down by the mental health system. In particular, I think psychiatry can be a very dangerous game and has left me with addiction and other health concerns.
I am a shy bookworm with a love for music, animals and Doctor Who.
Not sure how to end this post so I will say, thank you very much for taking the time to read this and I hope I have not bored you half to death. ;)
I discovered this website a few months ago but have been a bit reluctant to sign up as I am easily triggered. As I start a new phase of therapy with a specialist, I have realized how lonely and misunderstood I feel by "normal people". So I am giving this a shot.
I am a 26 year old British, Christian woman living in California, U.S.A with my husband, his family, a darling pooch and an angry, demented cockatiel (he is great for my nerves lol :tup: ) Currently I am unemployed. Partly because I am going through immigration (groan) but I think even if I had an opportunity to go out into the world and get a career, with my mental health the way it is, I wouldn't be doing it. I have a lot of anxiety fueled guilt and shame over not being able to contribute financially to our household. I also have a 6 (almost 7) year old daughter who is not in my care.
I have been in mental health services since around the age of 12 and had my first hospitalization in an acute adolescent ward at age 14. I have been inpatient 9 times since then.
I have had CBT, DBT and general talk therapy to try and untangle myself from the crippling aftermath of childhood trauma and other trauma that has happened to me later in life. These therapies really haven't even begun to permeate the symptoms or the mess. Just recently I have started working with a trauma specialist.
I am pretty symptomatic and right now drowning in ptsd crap, probably increased by actually working on this stuff in therapy and bringing it to the forefront. I also have a lovely array of comorbid disorders.
I have been on a cocktail of "medications" since my early childhood with very little success and feel thoroughly let down by the mental health system. In particular, I think psychiatry can be a very dangerous game and has left me with addiction and other health concerns.
I am a shy bookworm with a love for music, animals and Doctor Who.
Not sure how to end this post so I will say, thank you very much for taking the time to read this and I hope I have not bored you half to death. ;)
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