Can Anyone Identify

[Quatam]

:coldfeet: I get these attack where it feels as if my brain is just on over load, I start to shake and feel as if my brain is scrolling then the fear of going crazy comes in. I become so scared as if someone is trying to harm me.

Other times, I am just madly impatient, I have no tolerance. Other times I am patient and sweet as pie, then others I dissociate and don't have a clue what people are saying, I know their mouths are moving but can't comprehend it, or I go through a red light, or I can take immense amounts of physical pain and not be present, but yet if my body causes me pain I have very low tolerance.

Does this make sense to anyone?

 

[Britt.f7]

Yes, it seems all perfectly "normal" to me based on what our bodies and minds have gone through to even warrant PTSD. I have, throughout the years, experienced some of the above but not all. Like talking to someone, having them walk away and not knowing what we even talked about. Though I am sure enough that I did act appropriately, I will have no clue as to what was said. There are times, too, that I have to ask my husband to repeat something because my brain was just not there to comprehend it. I'm less likely to ask anyone else this indulgence.

I think I have a fairly high tolerance to pain at times. If it is physical pain caused by someone or it happens in front of someone, I definitely go into everything is alright mode(even if it is not).

I think there are other's on here that have experienced similar things. I wish I had some words to help you, but I did want you to know you are not alone in this.

 

[Mercy]

Quatum, It is not unusual for me to experience different "states of being" the way you have described them. I really hate it, especially the feeling of being totally out of control. Forgetfulness is another anathema to me. I feel so incompetent.

 

[GreenFrog2]

Quantum - it's sounds like a pretty average day for me! And, I'm not wanting to sound flippant at all as I truly do know how erratic the emotional roller-coaster can be. This has been my life for several years now, although I have gone through phases which were not so bad, most of the time I do feel like I am going crazy!

I try to remind myself that I have an injury, and rehabilitation is going to take a long time, and I won't know until I am there how well recovered I am going to end up being. Does not always help tho!

 

[Mercy]

Quatam, I do get it. Random disassociation can be very confusing and scary, especially if you are in a different 'state' than you were when some event or conversation began. You will be able to sort out some of this over time with good therapy. It is hard work and it can worse than when you began. The good news is that you can become more comfortable in your own body. Good wishes coming your way.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

My problem is with anxiety. I have to force myself to do the things that need to be done. I have such a hard time when I am experiencing this anxiety. I have to go food shopping and it is so hard. But I do it. I pay attention to what I am talking about. I struggle with the times that I have anxiety. I keep telling myself I will not fail and so far I have not. After I am done with whatever I needed to do I tell myself I can fall apart now, but I do not. I do not know if this is what you were looking for. But I relate to being hindered by the ptsd.

 

[Mercy]

I experience a range of anxiety. It can look like isolation from depression but a lot of the time, it is the avoidance of having my anxiety ramped up by leaving the house. Mid level anxiety for me usually has partial disassociation and increased hyper-vigilance. Then the high anxiety levels have full blown panic attacks.

I find your courage, gizmo, to be amazing. You must get exhausted after a trip to the store.