I went to see my psychiatrist last week and he has been trying to get me to see that not ALL people are bad and out to get me.
On some level, I understand what he is saying. MOST people do not kidnap, rape, assault and murder. I understand the math behind it but there is a bigger part of me that feels like screaming out to him "People are freaking crazy, haven't you seen the news lately???"
The latest in my country is the nut job that killed his boyfriend, hacked him up, made a video of it and posted it on thw internet, mailed the pieces to the head of our political parties and then fled to Europe. The news has been everywhere, it is hard to avoid it. The headlines are on the Internet, newspaper, tv and Facebook. It just reinforces my fears that people are bad.
Good lord, I just don't understand people, I really don't. People scare me. Their intentions scare me. Not being able to pick out with certainty which ones are good and which ones are bad plays heavily on my mind.
So, I keep to myself, avoiding contact with others as much as possible.
It's hard when you have seen and experienced such violence to turn down your paranoia radar :(
On some level, I understand what he is saying. MOST people do not kidnap, rape, assault and murder. I understand the math behind it but there is a bigger part of me that feels like screaming out to him "People are freaking crazy, haven't you seen the news lately???"
The latest in my country is the nut job that killed his boyfriend, hacked him up, made a video of it and posted it on thw internet, mailed the pieces to the head of our political parties and then fled to Europe. The news has been everywhere, it is hard to avoid it. The headlines are on the Internet, newspaper, tv and Facebook. It just reinforces my fears that people are bad.
Good lord, I just don't understand people, I really don't. People scare me. Their intentions scare me. Not being able to pick out with certainty which ones are good and which ones are bad plays heavily on my mind.
So, I keep to myself, avoiding contact with others as much as possible.
It's hard when you have seen and experienced such violence to turn down your paranoia radar :(