Co-complex -wait, what?! :)

[ktbox]

I define myself as who I was before. When I reflect on life -or do work in therapy.. I speak in past tense of who I am..... That is all that I know - who I am is historic *for now.

I am afraid to type or write or speak because I used to be an intelligent leader, and now I stumble through my thoughts. It is hard to read some of the longer posts.

The more time that goes by, the worse this seems to get. Perhaps it is due to a sort of "re-injury" - or re-exposure? The residuals of the trauma you know... can be so confusing toward treatment or progress... our young child requires surgeries -she has icu psychosis and the dread/process/witness and recovery each time.. is a set back for everyone.

So many dynamics.. parent -wife -sister- daughter- to PTSD spouse, and children... it is ongoing.

We look like really bad spin-art.

 

[Recovery4Me]

((kt box)) Big safe hugs to you and yours.

We look like really bad spin-art.

Although your quote above is taken seriously for the pain it reflects:sorry: I wanted you to know as I am also a quasi artist- "I" saw hope in your statement. Please let me explain...

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I have seen some modern pieces of art in SF, NY and DC that fetched an outstanding price and I just said, "Huh?":alien: I went home and created what I thought was beautiful. Point for me being...we have the power to design our own beauty from the inside...to our blank canvas.

who I am is historic *for now

Living in the 'present' being more than the sum total of what events happen around me or to me historically is equally a form of peace and beauty. A present mode can be a gift of living in the now. Therefore, I find your offer sincerely courageous and strong as you open your authenticity of your vulnerability.

Simon Sinek at the Ted Talks site have helped me get my groove on so to speak when unsafe areas wigged me out. I offer this talk to you. Perhaps it will assist only in reminding me where to go when "I" need a boost...may be you will like it too. You can find it by searching simon sink why good leaders make you feel safe. I can not put the string in perhaps the monitors may wish to.

Peace be with you on your quest to discovering you NOW as you are. (((hugs)))

 

[ktbox]

Recovery4me,

Both you... and this Simon Sinek talk.... humble me. Thank you --- for your words, your time, your thoughts and... kind gesture... *my words seem a bit lame compared to how I feel. :)

 

[Recovery4Me]

Please keep exploring and sharing on the boards. You have a lot on your plate and as wisdom is not passive... I know you can add much value to the community from your discoveries as well as past, present and future experiences.

See ya' around the forums.

ps...(in reference to your negative self thought)
your words aren't lame...:ninja: they are just thinking hard and waiting for the right time.

Be kind to yourself, ok?:hug:

Peace.

 

[ktbox]

I meant.. sometimes words are insufficient in expressing gratitude... :) and yes I hope to see you around the forums.