Collapsed Mood

[KwanYingirl]

My depression has raised it's mighty sword over me. I never see it coming and then Whack I am so depressed. Nothing is going wrong. My only stressor is trying to sell my house. No ones even looking at it. Maybe that's it just as I am writing this I can feel my body get heavy and I just want to die just stop these moods.

 

[Go Hungry]

I don't know what to say except just hang on.. It will pass again. :hug:

 

[Running to music]

My depression has raised it's mighty sword over me. I never see it coming and then Whack I am so depressed.

Sorry to hear that.

I feel for you. My depression hits me in the same way.... BOOM out of nowhere.

I was reading a bit yesterday about how to improve my mood. From what I read & tried... It is to increase positive feelings by doing the opposite of what you feel.

Like... if I feel like just curling up & going to sleep--- to get active (even if it is just taking a walk).

also I have an free app that I use. It is called PTSD Coach. It helps manage symptoms. You can put in songs you like, pictures to look at, it provides uplifting quotes, etc.

Know that you are not alone & keep on-- it will pass.

 

[GWhizz]

Maybe that's it just as I am writing this I can feel my body get heavy and I just want to die just stop these moods.

I'm really sorry you're feeling like this. Can you think back to all the positive inspiring advice you gave me recently? I hope it passes for you soon. For me, my mood goes up and down so frequently that I'm now trying to at least regain control over it and try not to let it dominate me anymore. Is there anyone you can reach out to to help keep you company or if you prefer to be alone maybe take a nap or do something you really enjoy, like watch your favourite movie in bed...

 

[KwanYingirl]

Thanks all. I am up and down moody. I feel better now that my dentist appt is done. I think it's a trigger. Today I had a female dentist and I was able to fully relax she was that calming.

I am going to get that app! Thanks so much for your ideas. How come I forget everything I've learned and then can't access it when I am in that dark miserable depression? I've decided also not to attend a family cookout tomorrow. Another trigger and I just don't want to spend $70 in gas and tolls to be with people that upset me.

 

[GWhizz]

@KwanYingirl unfortunately we seem to lose access to our coping strategies when we most need them eh?! Sounds like the thoughts of meeting with family could have been putting a lot of added pressure on you too.

I hope you have a peaceful night there

 

[Go Hungry]

I'm having the moodiness too. Was really freaked out this morning. Could barely stand to eat, and felt like I was going to blow chunks if I did. Short breaths, heart pounding. I think I was having a full freak out. But I went in to work anyways, managed to make it til lunch. Then took a nap and suddenly I feel on top of the world. It is true that all our coping strategies and good ideas and affirmations seem to be written on air; when the bottom drops out they just blow away on the wind. What a freaky life...

 

[KwanYingirl]

Nice metaphor Go Hungry. Maybe there are solar flares today?! I'm glad you're feeling better. I can only tolerate my family if I have respite at my daughters in Boston. It's a long drive from Maine especially weekend beach traffic. Once I ended up in the ER driving home. I had a major panic attack it was just too much in one day.

I am very sensitive.

 

[risingsun]

My depression has raised it's mighty sword over me.

I can empathize as I have been feeling like that for weeks now. I am sorry that you are feeling this way. Remember, you are not alone.

I've been trying to do many things that have made me feel happy in the past. Whether it is watching a favorite movie, preparing myself a favorite dish, or even listening to music that once uplifted me, I am trying it. I guess I'm trying to bring forth sights and sounds associated with good things to help pull me out of this as the senses can do miraculous things.

Also, I've been trying to keep myself focused on accomplishing one task, as mundane as that task is, to keep my mind focused on something else. And then try that with getting another task done and so forth. Therefore, there is that sense of accomplishment even if it is sorting out a junk closet. But I remain cognizant not to get overwhelmed with tasks so I am doing little things and remembering to relax in between.

Maybe that is something you can try as well. Warmest wishes to you. Keep the faith. This will pass. Rising

 

[Jane.l]

I know how you feel I get so fed up with the ups and the downs , so changeable, so unpredictable and so intense - one minute everything is ok - I care about things - the next nothing matters and everything is pointless . I hate the uncertainty the lack of stability that I never know how I am going to feel . The trick is to be able to stand back from it and see that it will pass - not something I can do while I am in it hope I will be able to one day. Hope you are soon feeling better - it will go - just take it minute by minute hour by hour and get through in little steps .

 

[KwanYingirl]

@Running to music
I downloaded the PTSD Coach App and the screen for songs comes up blank. Weird. I was able to set up contacts and photos but not music. Any advice?

 

[KwanYingirl]

My mood is upgraded to irritated. I am waiting for an Electrician to fix the fan in the bathroom. There's an open house tomorrow and I'd like the light/fan to be working. Of course he was supposed to be here an hour ago. I just want to go to bed and sleep this day off. Thank you all for your support. It helps so much.