Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[Mach123]

I have absolutely no idea what those are! But I guess it's possible for some region of the country to have kale soup and/or vinyadiles :roflmao:

I have links to this stuff but they are facebook and IDK if you guys can get them? Anyway, my source tells me I'm wrong, I was thinking of Vinho d"alhos, which is a kind of marinade. Wine and garlic marinade. Thanks for bringing me back. I'm chatting with her right now lol.

 

[ILoveLife]

Oh yeah, that I know :)

 

[littleoc]

Have fun cooking today @littleoc! Btw, I also add a lil brown sugar to the sweet potato marshmallow concoction. Have you ever made sweet potato pie?

Thank you!!! And right back at you!! Happy at Thanksgiving!

Oh, yeah, I forgot to mention the brown sugar and butter! Lol. And yes! I make pumpkin pies with canned pumpkin every year (I have a real pumpkin but it’s bred for Jack-o-lanterns so it’s take forever to cook and also be too stringy), and mincemeat — sweet potato is good too!! But I don’t usually think of it,

Honestly, I think that casserole was invented just to get children to eat some damn vegetables at Thanksgiving and then adults remembered eating it and made it for themselves.

? But theyre gooooood.

So we’ve got two Russian spies!! I’m onto you!!

 

[littleoc]

Today was actually a bit upsetting. There, I admitted it.

Most of it was good though.

 

[littleoc]

My new neighbors who live in the what was the pedophile’s house decided they want Christmas light.

Bright bluish periwinkle icicles and dancing snowflake things.

So now I can see the pedophiles house at night now. Right now my bedroom window. All perfectly outlined. Yaaaaay.

 

[ILoveLife]

Oh bummer. You really need to move out of there. Not putting pressure on you or anything, just a vent. Hate to see you go through that.

 

[littleoc]

Then went to my sister’s. To eat leftover Feast. (I love turkey sandwiches.)

Was stressful in a noneventful way at first. Sister’s husband was asleep and her son was being loud and she was begging him not to wake him up. I know it’s weird, but that’s a trigger for me. But I could manage.

Then he woke up because her son was so loud and started scream crying (he fell, it wasn’t his fault) so he woke up.

Came in the kitchen. A bit later started interrupting my conversations with my mom and sister REPEATEDLY and calling me stupid and daring me to prove otherwise.

I guess there’s a plus here because usually when he does this, my mom and sister tell me im the one being rude, even though what I did was get quiet, let him talk, and agree with him. But this year I talked over him, told him he was being obnoxious in a polite way, and when he said I went to a shot school I thought about reminding him that he got kicked out of school for drinking. I’m not a teenager anymore. That was your excuse for bullying me before and my family’s excuse for allowing it. Shit. Made myself cry typing that. It’s an improvement though.

I hope I don’t sound racist because I promise I’m not, but the fact that Pedo was Native and so is my sister’s husband really makes it harder to talk back. I feel like I can’t because I’m ... I don’t know. White? That’s not really it.

 

[littleoc]

So after a while a decided “f*ck it, I’m an adult” and went outside for a walk.

Accidentally walked straight to Brandi’s house.

 

[littleoc]

Sorry for the short posts of one story. Having a hard time typing it out. My head is hurting — and I do want to say the whole story. It’s just gonna have to come out in pieces.

 

[LuckiLee]

Oh Honey, that must be so scary! Whatever you're feeling? Totally acceptable. XO

 

[ILoveLife]

Don't apologize, nobody minds and it's your diary anyway, doesn't matter :hug:

I'm so sorry though.
That all sounds so stressful. :hug:
Don't be afraid to cry, it's a perfectly reasonable response.

 

[littleoc]

Thank you. @Sietz and @LuckiLee ? ?

I am a bit afraid to cry because I’m worried the crying is making my head hurt worse, and I wanted to be more helpful today. I acted happy and was able to brush off sister’s husband’s bullying at the time. But the “what was your school even teaching you?” thing hurt. I’m sick of being called stupid by that man. I don’t know what his problem is or why my mom got mad at me back in my teen years and even recently when talking about my teen years for saying he treated me like shit. I don’t care what nice things he’s done, he’s an alcoholic who won’t get help and doesn’t do any chores at home but claims I am solely responsible for my mom’s house and tells me I should be ashamed. And confusingly told me on Facebook that it’s okay that Brandi prevented me from going to prom, because prom actually sucks and there will be better events in my life. Maybe he’s only mean when he’s drunk. Or sober. I don’t know.

So I walked straight to Brandi’s house. It’s actually a model that was reused for my suster’s house. So, yeah, I think about being forced to give sexual favors when I’m at my sister’s, and how sad Brandi was that she lost that house she had. That looks literally exactly like my sister’s. Same architect built both.