Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[Freida]

Agreed -- -dark urine does not make me happy. Do you have an advice nurse you can call?

 

[Freida]

But to be fair, I'm still young anyway. (?)

It is so odd to see you ask that. One of the things I struggle with is my age when my dramas and traumas really amped up. I was 20 - and was sure I was all grown up and adult. But looking back? Seriously? 20 is a teenager with delusions of grandeur. There are even several theories that the brain doesn't finish growing until around the age of 24 -- not 18 like we all used to think. Now add a TBI and yep - you probably are a bit younger than your body age. And you know what? That's ok! The more time you have to be young the more fun you will have as you go forward

 

[littleoc]

I probably COULD ask a nurse, but I'll put it off for a bit. I am hoping for it to clear up soon! :)

I question it because I have such a hard time with my age. I've had people tell me I act older than their mothers with the words I say, and that during speeches they feel they wouldn't mess with me, and in kindergarten my teacher warned my mother I was emphasizing on an "adult level" and it was terrifying her, but I don't feel that I'm old enough to know what I'm talking about?

I know about a lot of things, but not practical things. Not easily, anyway. People have to explain things to me, and I battle being emotionally dependent on others pretty frequently (I do know how to handle my emotions PRETTY well, though). But, I couldn't do my own taxes and haven't ever tried yet, and driving still worries me a bit, and so on.

And I feel like I'm telling people the wrong age, but I feel better about that after what you've just said :)

Being a teenager is hard, and being in your 20s is odd.

But I'm a kid with a BA in a science so I guess it's fine, lol. It makes sense that the TBI might be affecting the way I'm viewing my age, or the age I may actually be

It makes sense

 

[littleoc]

It can't be my gallbladder, since it's on my right side (i doubt I'm a mirrored person, lol) and I'm eating fats/oils without problems.

Although the right side of my back is sore but the physical therapist will be looking at that soon because it was getting worse with exercise for some reason

It's also probably not my pancreas even though my family if full of diabetics. I think if I'm careful with my diet I can avoid pancreas problems for twenty or thirty more years at the very least.

Also a sad pancreas wouldn't explain the rest

I'm thinking it was a glitch in the matrix and we'll return to our regularly scheduled PTSD problems tomorrow :P

Eating yogurt just in case

 

[littleoc]

I wonder if I'm stressed

 

[somerandomguy]

I wonder if I'm stressed

Sure sounds like it :hug:

 

[littleoc]

I'm not ruling stress out, but eating was definitely a bad idea :P

Could be a bug of some kind, even mixed with stress. Stress hurts the immune system, I've heard


My mom was upset that I changed my mind about going to the store (I love the store usually as long as it isn't crowded or loud) and thought I was upset about her missing car keys

She's very upset about her missing car keys

I told her I am feeling unwell and her mood went down a bit. I think she was looking forward to hanging out. Oh well. Neither of us can fix whatever this is until it fixes itself (or a doctor does, but I'm waiting to see if one is even necessary. Money is scarce, I think)

 

[littleoc]

I have ruled out food poisoning

lol

 

[littleoc]

I suddenly remembered a friend who has probably been dead since 2011

Arab Springs

I hope he just lost Internet and got out okay. It's possible

 

[littleoc]

Blood pressure and dehydration?

Tried to stand, went blind and deaf and imbalanced for a good thirty seconds or more. Poor brain, it didn't even have anything to do with the illness(?). Sensitive these days, aren't you?

It was too hot in here. Tried to fix it. That happened.

Then I got asked if my brother left already. How the heck would I know? Or to be honest, why would he need to tell me? He's a grown man. I'm trying to relax, don't ask me questions

I must be grumpy from low sugar or something? Is this grumpiness? Or am I just groggy?

 

[littleoc]

No nightmares :)

 

[littleoc]

This is going to sound absolutely ridiculous, maybe even insane, but it's bothering me a lot so I'm just going to spill it so it'll stop.

Extremely thankful for the existence of a site that allows me to do this. I doubt anywhere else would accept stuff like this.

Triggered by me trying to get sodium in me because I need it and haven't had enough today. (I succeeded :laugh:.)

During the time I was Fungus. In the middle of daily conversations as Fungus and probably school? Maybe after Iceland, though?

Definitely after TBI diagnosis. Was definitely still effecting me at this time -- I was having software read and write for me, and my phone was given special features to help me use it once evening approached.

Still useful.

Excuse me while I just sit here instead of typing it