Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

IT IS AWESOME. I'm so glad I called. There's paperwork to fill out now and I don't know how much they will cover, but any bit would be helpful.

My mom should really take my advice more often, lol. (When she can't pay a bill, she starts ignoring phone calls and never calling to make payments, so the organizations always sue her. It's really frustrating.)


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Is there somewhere you can go for a just a few days? Just to get some fresh air and to get away from the mold for a bit?

When I get my license in two days, I will probably go to the library way more often, or at least go somewhere more chill. If I work that will get me out of here. I will figure it out eventually.

Maybe it would take some of the pressure off of you? :hug:

Maybe. But I would still be sad. I'm really worried about my mom's health.

I might give her a choice in the spring. "Either work with the therapist or else I'm calling adult protective services" or something like that. I'm not sure yet. I would like to practice channeling an inner Gordon Ramsey because he would have a very healthy attitude about all this. Yeah, empathy will help my mom, but she could really use a wake-up call. And empathy isn't working for that.

But I agree that if there isn't a willingness to change, any outside effort is futile.

Yeah, I think she's made it pretty clear that she doesn't want change.

Although, I'm not positive how much mental health is involved. She was honest with the therapist. She invited the therapist in, the therapist got optimistic instantly like "oh this is nothing like the other houses I work with, this will be a breeze" so I can't figure out why my mom froze up and refused to call her. But, no decision is a decision. And I don't want to live here and have this be my personal problem too.

Plus, Nestle deserves space. She can't turn around without things falling on her, so with her f*cked up knee she ended up learning to walk backwards. It's kinda funny and depressing at the same time.

That's the main reason I rented a house that was higher than my paycheck, lol. I refused to have Nestle heal from a major surgery in such a dangerous environment. Besides the infections she would have gotten? I bet she would have torn the other tendon if I didn't just carry her everywhere. When we first moved back in, that's actually what I did. I carried her inside and carried her to my room. Really hard on my back but I didn't want her to get hurt.

Luckily she's really independent but still, it's ridiculous that that was necessary to keep her safe at any point.





....I wish someone would have carried me in after my leg surgery. I was like 15 or something and was afraid to take too big of a step. It was a minor surgery, but still. It was awful that when I got home, my bed was surrounded by giant black bags to the point that I had to stand there while my mom guiltily attempted to moved one over. And failed. So I had to climb over it and it really, really hurt. And reminded me of a non-surgical injury from five years earlier, so that was lovely.

My mom felt terrible but...

 

[littleoc]

I carried her inside and carried her to my room.

On top of that, I actually locked her in my room so that she wouldn't try to walk through the house when I wasn't there to protect her. She cried about it. It was sad.

And that's also when my room started smelling STRONGLY of mildew so I had to move Dove to another room. Turns out Nestle had spilled her water bowl. Unsurprising, since she had no room to move well. But at least I had made enough room for her joint-health bed.

 

[littleoc]

Nestle saved Xavier's life and honestly after I was done feeling shocked I thought it was funny.... lol

Cuz Nestle actually THREW that other cat :roflmao: Didn't want to hurt a cat! I DIDN'T KNOW DOGS COULD EVEN DO THAT.

Xavier is fine. He just has one puncture mark because he got insanely lucky. He kind of did it to himself though so.... But he's okay. Good thing he had his rabies shot!

 

[littleoc]

The other cat was fine too. Definitely a feral but we checked on her anyway. I doubt she will want to talk to Nestle again for a while....

 

[bellbird]

So so happy about the positive phone call with the hospital!!!!! Proud of you for calling up.

I think going to the library to work after getting your license sounds a very good idea.
Working on my studies was my way of getting out from Z's drugging if only for half a day each week. I could actually think. Nestle will appreciate the fresh air and change of scenery too, I'm sure.

I have a very strong desire to call her Nessie, so I'mma do just that :d
Way to go Nessie, I'm proud of you too (please give her pats from me).

 

[littleoc]

(She has received pats from @bellbird)

Fun fact: she goes by many names :D Among them are Noodle, The Noodle, Doggo, Chickadee, Hershey (some people in public just remember she was named after a chocolate, lol), NuNu, Nessie (her most original name!!! It just fits!!), Cat, Big Slinky, Lady, and Friendo

lol

No one in my family can talk or remember names so everyone gets weird ass nicknames. Nestle just ended up being her official name for the service stuff (she has her name on her vest too)

Plus people seem to like it so hey :D

 

[littleoc]

Aka @bellbird is psychic :P

 

[littleoc]

I introduced the two cats I’ll adopt to Nestle, and Nestle to Kichi and Taz. Kichi was nervous for a moment, but after tapping Nestle’s face with a claw to see if Nestle would react, Kichi was all good. Taz hissed and backed away slowly — but he didn’t panic!! Very good sign. Nestle’s reaction to his nervousness was “oh,” as in that was literally the sound she made. It was a “I want to touch your face” noise.

My sister will help me get his Valium for the move when it’s about time. I will bring some of his favorite stuff so he can adjust better. But I felt he in particular should meet Nestle now so that she’s not a new monster to face in a new home. And, he will have Kichi, and that should help him too. A few familiar things.

He also let me pet him while Nestle was in the room with him. I’m so proud of him!!!! My sister said before she had her son, she worked a lot with him to get him to be calmer and more of a normal cat. It really shows.

It’s unfair that nonhuman animals can get PTSD, though, but I’m glad he’s doing so wel!!! But even humans can’t understand what’s going on with themselves when they have PTSD, and humans are incredibly self aware creatures. You can’t just tell a cat “hey that’s in the past, chill, my dude,” but he seems to be handling stress!

I imagine that will change significantly when I move him. But hopefully he will adjust quickly. Cats in general hate change but they’re adaptable also. :)

 

[bellbird]

(She has received pats from @bellbird)

(Yay)

Among them are Noodle, The Noodle

I love that these are two distinct nicknames :D

My favourite random (so warped it barely resembles his actual name) nickname for Tweeter is Puttanesca.

I introduced the two cats I’ll adopt to Nestle, and Nestle to Kichi and Taz.

Good idea! And glad it went well!

 

[Freida]

So happy about the hospital!!!! Yay!!! ?
Oh - I saw the purple guy on hubbys computer today -- looked totally different that it does on mine! :laugh:

 

[bellbird]

purple guy on hubbys computer today -- looked totally different that it does on mine! :laugh:

On my phone he looks like an octopus!
But an octopus that is segregated from the other animal emojis (they're probably just jealous of his moves though let's be honest).

 

[Freida]

Happy dancing octopus!!