Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[somerandomguy]

Great job sticking up for yourself! I would have yelled too!!

Counterfeit stuff is absolutely everywhere online. Once I bought a power cord for a laptop from Amazon that lasted three days and then caught on fire. I bought an $80 watch that I'm sure was counterfeit, but at least I got a year out of it.

 

[littleoc]

I probably shouldn’t even be worrying about this, I’m just overwhelmed and that’s been going on for too long.

I’m angry about Jamie texting me to tell me that Brandi never abused me. I’m angry that Brandi acted like we were friends. I’m angry that I can’t go sit at a table or cook a meal. I’m angry that my grandfather is being moved from the nursing home into hospice and my mom can’t afford to drive up to see him before he goes, and even if she could she’d feel it’s too late anyway because he stopped even trying to communicate months ago. I’m angry that I can’t even consider getting a pup. And I’m angry that my dad keeps trying to make our relationship look good on Facebook.

Cleaned Isaac’s house and it looks fantastic. I think he’ll appreciate it when he arrives from Italy. My friend F says I can come stay with him any time. He’s great, I want to keep him forever.

@somerandomguy Ah!!! I hate it when cords catch fire! Glad you were okay!

Also thank you, glad to know I hopefully wasn’t overreacting

Funny story: My grandmother lovingly bought me a laptop in 2011, and I’ve taken such great care of it that it’s still alive and kicking. (Despite getting dropped yesterday...) About two months ago, when I went to buy a replacement battery for it (from NewEgg because so far they haven’t let me down), I decided to give the whole thing maintenance. It needed it. But in the BIOS I found a strange note from the manufacturer saying that in 2012, they had voluntarily recalled the charger... for an explosion hazard. lol. I guess mine was okay!

 

[littleoc]

At the storage unit, my mom was very, very good at determining at a quick pace what things to get rid of. I don’t think she’s a hoarder. I think she’s overwhelmed

 

[littleoc]

I’ve been having dreams about marrying a wizard human man. I hope they keep up because they’re incredibly entertaining

 

[littleoc]

My mom gifted me my favorite soup. I wish I could gift her the money to go see her dad. She lost her mom years ago in a tragic way I don’t feel like discussing right now because it’s complicated and messed up. But so is how she’s losing her dad. Do you think $500 is enough to go see him if he lives way up north, and we live in the basically-the-South?
But we’re both in the East so that’s cool

 

[littleoc]

I get what you are saying -- and I'm proud of you. I'm guessing stealing is up there with all the other mal adaptive coping mechanisms? Which means you are trying to let this one go. So they question becomes. what good coping method do you replace it with?

Hm

I have no idea. I’ve been thinking about it for the half hour that’s been posted. I have started impulsively buying things so that needs to stop. I stole a towel yesterday from a gym and I’m not even sure why. People won’t like me if they know about this so I need to figure this out. I don’t really want to talk to my therapist about this but I suppose I will.

My therapist thinks selective mutism is a thing children do they they want to make adults annoyed, on purpose, so I’ve been annoyed at her since she said that 6 months ago. I don’t know why I didn’t correct her. I guess because I was trying to annoy her, on purpose

 

[littleoc]

I sincerely hope you all are having great days. I think of y’all a lot when I’m not online. I feel like that’s a sign I should back off again. But maybe not for three years this time, haha.

You’re all great though

 

[littleoc]

And Nestle probably likes you too

 

[somerandomguy]

We like you too, @littleoc. You make our lives better. No joke.

 

[littleoc]

Oh, thank you <3 Right back at you :)

 

[littleoc]

Overstock says they “accidentally credited a full refund” and are currently trying to get it back

Lol, I hope they get denied. This is more annoying than the house my mom and I live in

 

[littleoc]

I’m supposed to be making that sexual assault charge against Emily official. Instead I’m arguing with a business that doesn’t know how to business

I do kinda want my 93$ back though, that’s kind of a lot. Maybe this isn’t technically bad priorities