Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

I actually don’t want to call that therapist... but I can’t just waste her time, either. I’m afraid of deciding I don’t want her services but then I’d end unable to say no.

Also I can’t see how she can help me in my current situation, which makes me feel I’ve wasted her time. I’m not even sure at this point.

But yesterday when I was trying to find any one of our three wrist braces (my tendon is inflamed), I found like twelve unopened boxes of finger splints, so that’s useless

 

[littleoc]

My actual therapist finally promised to get back to me with times for this Saturday, but it’s been more than 24 hours and I haven’t heard anything yet

I’m not expecting perfection so I’m not sure why I’m frustrated at this. I definitely won’t bring it up.

Maybe im still mad at her for the racist comment. And saying selective mutism is deciding to be mute, on purpose. Or that all pitbulls are evil. Or that she keeps interrupting me to tell me how her son is doing in life, because he got “PTSD from a dog attacking his dog.” Or maybe I’m annoyed at I’m annoyed. Maybe it’s all the gory stories she keeps telling me, that started haunting my dreams, or maybe it’s that time she told my mom something I told her in session, TWICE.

I dunno, I’m just very frustrated and don’t really think I should leave the relationship either. But if I had a car I’d definitely have a different therapist at this point. But last time I switched therapists I became inconvenient to my mom, even though it was the therapist himself who suggested switching, but my mom immediately started blaming me for being too picky and told me so regularly until I, a 15-year-old, decided to go find my own f*cking therapist. Because my mom claimed there were no other therapists in my town, especially one who would see me after 5pm. Instead, she acted like I was a f*cking monster.

 

[littleoc]

Sorry. I frustrated myself

My therapist and my mom are okay people.

 

[littleoc]

My psychiatrist just canceled by “very important” appointment, so I suppose it’s family emergencies :(

 

[somerandomguy]

Blah! :(

 

[littleoc]

I got it rescheduled for two weeks from now. That should work :)

 

[littleoc]

The therapist didn’t answer my calls nor call me back, so I suppose that’s that

 

[littleoc]

My mom sent an invoice to the insurance people who were supposed to pick up a car on June 20th and suddenly they labeled it as high priority and took it away this morning ?

I hope we get that 500.10$ lol

 

[littleoc]

It turns out the nutritionist was right.

All my strange symptoms? Milk

I’m lactose intolerant

In a family who is known for cheese lol

Not so lol right now actually because I’m in a lot of pain, but at least I know now

It was the milk

 

[littleoc]

Note to self: no need to buy the happy cow milk if it’s soy

No need to worry if the soy was free range

 

[ILoveLife]

Yuk.. milk ?

 

[littleoc]

Way better than cancer amirite