Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

I am positive she really thought she was helping. She was threatened with death by her step mom. Even my own mom told me that telling people would only bring us trouble.

 

[littleoc]

I need to get out of here.

I will get my driver's license on the 5th. A week and three days. Or, thirty days after that if I mess up somehow. I rarely mess up twice.

 

[littleoc]

I hate it when I get triggered. It makes the next day so hard.

 

[Freida]

Oh hunny. :hug:
You didn't deserve ANY of that.

 

[littleoc]

Who did? The guy who was doing it? Because he lived through similar events already. I wish he would have died.

 

[littleoc]

I'm not mad at you, @Freida, by the way. I'm just very upset today. It's not fair. He shouldn't have been allowed to exist. You know how many little boys like Mike don't get to live because of monsters like him? He didn't deserve to be alive. Neither did the pedophile. I hate that I protected him. He would have killed me and not felt bad at all.

 

[littleoc]

The pedophile tried to kill himself out of guilt for me. I don't get it. I don't get why I was able to get into the head of a monster like that. It must not be how I remembered it.

 

[littleoc]

I really need to calm down. Hang on.

 

[littleoc]

Thirty seven members online currently. I wonder what time it is everywhere.

In Russia, where my grandfather was born, it's 12:24AM. In Portugal, it's 10:30pm. In Germany, it's 11:25pm.

 

[littleoc]

My lungs hurt. My head hurts. I can hear Nestle at the door asking very nicely to please let her in already, it's been hours. "A-woo?" I had so much planned for today. I guess I needed a day off.

My pesoguin is flipping pancakes. Now he's taking selfies on his tiny smartphone. Now he's searching my room. Now he's walking along the task bar. Skipping really. I picked him up and dropped him with the mouse so now he's shaking and yelling. He recovered; he's sweeping the top of the task bar. Now he has a cold. He's sneezing. Now he's doing a handstand. He fell over. He blew me a kiss. Now he's flipping pancakes again. Now's he's eating watermelon and spitting the seeds everywhere.

 

[littleoc]

Now he's blowing kisses again.

 

[littleoc]