Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

I think I could have been a lot stronger if my dad hadn’t been in my life. But I really think things worked out the best they could.

 

[Freida]

I think I could have been a lot stronger if my dad hadn’t been in my life.

holy crap kid -- I'm not sure you mean by "you could have been stronger." Go back and read the last few pages and and what you have already lived thru. And yet - you are a functioning, empathic, wonderful person. That could only happen if someone is really, really strong. Like you. :hug:

 

[littleoc]

Okay. So now my grandmother is sending my mom threats...? I guess I should stay out of it. But it 100% stops all my potential plans for asking her to help.

 

[littleoc]

Thanks, @Freida. That’s a better way of looking at it.

 

[littleoc]

I am worried. This means my dad is about to get involved. His step mom always involves him.

 

[littleoc]

Why does she always try taking revenge instead of just seeing she’s in the wrong? I bet the moment I move out she’s going to sell the house and leave my mom homeless.

 

[littleoc]

I hate this. I wish my mom hadn’t told me. It’s too confusing.

 

[littleoc]

How can they be so generous and then hold it over people’s heads the moment they go against their son, who has KILLED PEOPLE. Granted, they probably assume he didn’t do it. They briefly pretended one of my brothers didn’t exist and threatened to not pay for his college education when my brother said my dad had sexually abused him. They claimed my brother was lying. They still haven’t apologized for that. And now they’re sending threats because THEY gave my dad his address. What I is that even supposed to solve? No boundaries were messed with except my brother’s.

I FINALLY got the stress to go away and then my mom told me that. Wish I hadn’t gone to talk to her. I don’t know what to say and now I’m terrified again. They’re always fighting.

 

[littleoc]

That’s what i get for going on a one-day vacation.

 

[bellbird]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

(I'm too foggy to have helpful words right now, sorry. But just wanted to let you know that I'm here and hearing you.)

 

[littleoc]

Thank you, @bellbird :hug: :hug: That helps.

I’m very overwhelmed and wish the negative stuff would stop happening for five minutes. I’m not sure I can deal with much more for now. At least Nestle is allowed to work again.

 

[littleoc]

Hope you’re doing okay :hug: :hug: