Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

gonna go make more ART even tho it's not gonna fix shit looool (it will fix my mood tho)

 

[Friday]

My service dog is officially way too old, and I am genuinely not functioning without her well, tho I have stopped retraining her on most things because I want her to just decide what effort she wants to put in.

Would they like to help training a puppy?

 

[littleoc]

 

[littleoc]

I think she'd love to, though I need some money to take care of a second doggo first :P

 

[littleoc]

I have been having a hard week and have been struggling with suicidal thoughts. Not really much to say besides that, just that I wish my mom would stop asking me for favors when I'm already overwhelmed and have already asked her to not do so.

It might snow. :)

 

[Rose White]

Hope you get snow ️

 

[littleoc]

It flurried :D

 

[Rose White]

Yay

 

[Freida]

 

[littleoc]

I think I was dreaming/in a mixed state of sleep and awake while driving? Not sure. Worried about it, though :/

Made me feel very anxious and confused. I was dreaming I was at the airport trying to find where I was supposed to park the car

Need to get diagnosed with narcolepsy already and see if there's a med or something, idk. I'm the only one in my immediate circle besides my sister who can drive

 

[littleoc]

Three positions from today:

I got to eat without cooking
My cats are very sweet and they love me and I love them
I was able to get some food for my leopard gecko
My dog is cute

Three times I felt safe:
In the driveway, I suppose, because I napped there
Peeing in the bathroom (was alone)
Eating cheese in the car

Other:
Very happy I was able to go get mealworms for my lizard been trying to for days. She wasn't totally out but I felt frustrated that it was taking me too long because of how tired I have been

 

[littleoc]

There are days where I wish I hadn't been born at all.