Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

I've failed everyone

 

[littleoc]

I've failed everyone

Talking about cats. Even the feral cat in my house I decided to keep for his safety is upset. I re-home him tomorrow.

Beanbag, who hasn't woken me up meowing in years, has begun yelling a lot.

I failed them. I trusted the wrong advice in order to help them stay with me and it was my last option and even it was wrong. I've failed every single person. Was left with the only way to keep them safe being rehoming.

My entire life I've had all these stupid goals to just get away and everything failed. Absolutely everything. And I'm losing the last little bit that kept me from being homeless.

I have earned euthanasia.

 

[littleoc]

I'm really, genuinely sorry

 

[Teasel]

You just haven't failed anybody, sweet littleoc, you've failed no one at all

 

[littleoc]

Sorry

 

[littleoc]

 

[ms spock]

@littleoc

Dad's abuse affecting me this long is ridiculous

My Dad's abuse is still affecting me. You are not alone with this.

Every forum I go on , which has Americans, there's a whole lot of grief of folks giving away their pets and not knowing where they will live.

This is not a personal failure. It is a systematic failure.

You are way beyond what you can do.

You took a risk, tried to manage and it didn't work out. And your PTSD cup was already overflowing. It was too much.

I really want you to stay alive.

I really understand why you are feeling this way.