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Yes. Thank you. I am trying to remove the 'program'. This one is really tough though. Still trying to put one foot in front of the other. Thanks so much for your validation and kindness.I do understand that inability to trust my perception of reality, and past experience of people not being able to understand the pathological nature of a situation.
Yes, this is my experience as well. I haven't actually heard it put quite so succinctly. Thank you for that. I believe this is one of my fears. That I won't 'see' what is right in front of me.Not least of all I have a history of blanking out warning signs.
Not sure that avoidance is the way to deal with it though.
I most certainly understand that and am sorry if I triggered something off in you. Please accept my apologies @Bkinder.and I hesitate to get close to anyone on this site by personally messaging
Yes. This is at the core of what I am struggling with right now. I don't have it in me, and I know it, to face this shiest again.I'm not looking to get hurt again
Absolutely no question. I understand 150%. No stress. No worries.but I hope you understand.
Oh boy. The shame (which I am not one to carry around so much) in not being able to move forward with this. Can't even begin to tell you. Or explain it to myself. This is not my normal 'go to' mode. I have always been a real go getter.how are we doing today?
I don't even know why I can't start a thread on it. I fear my being stupid (?) is the closest I can come to it. Stupid in not being able to understand what I am told on that thread. Ridiculous, I know. Still the avoidance.
I am going to keep trying regardless of how minimal I believe my progress is. Thanks so much for checking in @TheBubzilla and each of you who have weighed in. It means a lot to me. :hug: