Complete Breakdown

[Casey_03]

I completely broke down last night, in public. the day began with me finding out my roommate had stolen the rent money i'd sent him, and that because of his not paying, we were being evicted. I found this out hours before I had to catch a train back to kiev for work, meaning i'd have no time to remove all my stuff and get my cat transported. That was how the day began. Then I missed my train. By split seconds. Delaying my return to work by a day and really putting my employment in jeopardy. So, I broke down. Just collapsed into tears. A friend who'd come to say bye kept reassuring me but it only pissed me off more. I lashed out at him and told him I wanted to go home to kill myself. I wasn't serious but was so angry that the universe just keeps crapping on me, and so absolutely exhausted. Now, of course, I feel incredibly stupid for having this meltdown and saying those things.

 

[mrsps]

What a crap day you had I don't blame you for breaking down the way you did, most people in your situation would have done the same. I can understand you feeling stupid but please don't it was such a stressful day that everything just got on top of you. Im sure your friend will understand.

Was an arse your roommate was for stealing the money, I would have been sooooooo angry I would have a total meltdown over this let alone anything else that went wrong.

Wishing you happier times ahead :)

 

[Sammyiam]

I hope that you can get the support that you need at this time. I really feel for you we all have just those days that you wish you hadn't got out of bed. I once went into a paint shop and ended up in tears when the counter assistant said ... So how's your day going ? I just looked at her and burst into tears, I felt like the whole world had just opened up at that very second and swallowed me whole in one bite. I bet she often thinks about that when she asks people So how's your day going ?

I think the saying is : the the last straw that breaks the camels back

I think you had one of those moments two, I am so sorry that you felt like that and I hope you are feeling a little better. Is your cat ok as well ? Give him/her lots of cuddles

Sammy

 

[scout86]

I think almost anyone is capable of reacting that way to that kind of mess! Cut yourself some slack for being human.

I hope you, and your cat, have a roof over your heads!

edited to add that I hope your ex-roommate ends up in jail, or worse, where he belongs!

 

[Gadgie]

When I read your post Casey it brought back memories to me of the time when I broke down. I turned up for work, when I really should have phoned in sick, then realised that I just couldn't cope with it. I ended up taking an anxiety attack and started being physically sick, shivering and had no control of events at all.

I had been over working for days, as I was on call non stop for twenty nights, instead of the usual ten nights, as some one was off work sick, and I had to cover them. We had been really busy and we were called out during the nights to some really messy jobs, it was physically and mentally draining.

They gave me an injection to stop the sickness, and I went home, I slept straight through for fourteen hours, and woke up feeling a lot better. I think looking back on it now, it was by body telling me that it couldn't take any more, and that was it's way of shutting down.