Conceptualising PTSD - Trauma Response To Anger

[Slim]

IT happeens to me it I am stressed

sorry

 

[Bec]

Don't worry

 

[Slim]

I have been trying this response on my own. I decided I needed to stop a few seconds after I noticed one of my triggers have been set off. Then when I realize what set it off and why I am upset about it(past experience or something to be upset about right now) I respond in the way that I feel is best. I also try to figure out whether my reaction is rational or irrational due to my fear and trust issues. When I do respond I try to remember that I have to try my best to be assertive with my response and not go to the other 2 extremes -- being passive or aggresive about how I am feeling at the time.

What works for me I have a wauted blanket like 25bls it helps with anxity

sorry
I am pipper mqnnic it just comes out

 

[Slim]

The weight of the blanket is like a big hug I thought it was bs at first but it helps.

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[Slim]

I have been trying this response on my own. I decided I needed to stop a few seconds after I noticed one of my triggers have been set off. Then when I realize what set it off and why I am upset about it(past experience or something to be upset about right now) I respond in the way that I feel is best. I also try to figure out whether my reaction is rational or irrational due to my fear and trust issues. When I do respond I try to remember that I have to try my best to be assertive with my response and not go to the other 2 extremes -- being passive or aggresive about how I am feeling at the time.

It is really hard for me not to be too in there face as I am a big man, and remember to take my turn.

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[Slim]

Well all this is of to the gym didnt want to hurt your feelings talking to fast thats just mn.

 

[Bec]

? Who's feelings do you think you have hurt, (((Slim)))?

 

[cjf2010]

I'm not hurt, that's if you were referring to me. As far as waiting 5 seconds, I believe we are all at different stages in the healing and greiving process that comes with this disorder. I am at a point in my healing right now where I can wait 5 seconds. You may not be right now(Slim), but maybe in some time you will be able to manage your symptoms where you can wait those 5 seconds. I've had this disorder for almost two decades and have spent almost that long in therapy. I'm not quite sure of your circumstances, and I don't think anyone on this forum is really here to judge one another. I believe we all understand where your at and possibly where you may be headed(if we are lucky enough to be further in managing our symptoms).

 

[Slim]

I did not mean anything by it, this shit sucks. And we all get cross to bare one of the biggest things for me is I will never swing a hammer again I can't do math I loved the job I was a workaholic. Sorry if I made you upset.

When I first started the program It had already been almost a year. And I am thankfull for as long as I came. I could not even read at first and how I love to read. It has been 2 years and 16 docotors its time to move on:)

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[cjf2010]

It's perfectly fine, I know you didn't mean anything by it. I'm not usually offended by too much anymore. My ex-husband has said and done a lot worse things to me than anyone on this forum could ever do. So please don't fret over it. We are all here to help one another, and to do that we must not get offended over the simple things in life. :D

 

[712xx]

What about different sides to each 'reaction'. I tend to have a range of thoughts, beliefs, & feelings about any given subject. It is my nature to second guess every first impression I have ... so, the first impression becomes split, then those 2 impressions become 4, & so on.

I get so caught up within the 'analytical', no real paradigm has a chance to develop. It is like that old proverb -- a house build on sand is doomed to fall;or something like that. All my beliefs & concepts are like a bunch of sand grains. I pay too close attention to the 'leaves' & not enough on the forest.

This is because the details have a calming effect on my nerves, and when my focus pans too far out, my anxiety revs to uncomfortable levels. This is why I am only successful in an educational setting, and working in a lab -- anywhere else, where the broader picture matters more, I fail miserably.

 

[Middle of Nowhere]

Slim
There are still bad voices in my head. Finding my own voice has been a comedy of errors. My voice is very angry right now because of my situation. To create change is hard for anyone, but I fail, I try, I fail, I try. That is life, I am learning why the knowledge doesn't stick. I wake up every morning and feel like i am starting over in the process, but in truth I am making decisions based on my thoughts not my emotions if I realize that I am in a panic and stop. Hard thing to stop, but not impossible. I am still not well enough to remember to eat every day and I am constantly telling myself to breath. The Blanket is a tool I use too. It's a trauma in the womb thing. Trauma in a prenatal brain must have something to do with it for me. Sad but I think that is a valid thing to consider. Actually it's not sad, it's horrifying.