Constantly There

[trying2movefwd]

Why are thoughts in my mind so often? Sometimes very subtle or in passing and then other times "entertained ", the really scary times when I started getting what I need to follow through with a plan. :( They are just in passing right now.

 

[Stickler]

I don't know why? But I know a lot of other people here ideate a lot like that. I do.

Just commit yourself to going to the ER if it gets bad. You might find out WHAT emergency room you ought to go to in a psychiatric crisis.
Might want to arrange a ride in advance, child care? You have kids?

Accept it's possible you will get there and plan for it.

The impulse always passes.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Why are thoughts in my mind so often?

For me, it's because I am in pain and I just want the pain to stop and the struggles to end. It's because I hurt deeper than I can explain to anyone which makes me feel isolated even more. And also I often feel like a waste of space, like a failure.

However, I think, like @Stickler said, you should have a plan for helping yourself when you feel at your lowest. You mentioned in someone else's post calling a support number, do you have one you use written out where it's easy to find or saved on the computer if it's an online one?

I believe that we just need a little break from the pain from time to time even if that means having to go to the ER to be looked after by someone else. It's not pleasant, but it is at least a little break. Sometimes I call/message someone I trust enough to talk to about my feelings. There aren't many people like that, but it does help.

It is not weakness to ask for help or reach out for help or to take care of yourself, but rather a strength that most people can't comprehend. Keep on this journey of healing.