I have no access to therapists in my area. Over the months I have been on this forum I have taken advantage of the articles, the AI ,the suggested resources, Andy’s articles, the input from those who are further a long in their dealing with their CPTSD/PTSD.I have journaled, read books, and listened to audio books. This week a map formed of my history and I am sure little details were left out but The map showed exactly what transpired in my life, my brain, the consequences and how I can proceed living with this with the skills I have learned. I am not healed but this mapping of my life brought together a picture of my journey and helped me forgive myself of some of the shame I have carried. It has been the input here that has so helped this process. I will always have CPTSD but I have been given so many answers. Thank you.