Crying For No Reason

[si2525]

Hi

I know this shouldn't be too surprising but has anyone cried out of the blue for no reason.

I have had ptsd for 20 years, only realised about a year and half ago, got in a bad way, been seeing a therapist for 6 months doing somatic therapy mixed with dream work.

I expected maybe it was very possible for this to happen with the therapy but I haven't cried fully in about 30 years, I mean proper sobbing not just welling up.

When I first started therapy I was not in a good way, felt weak and sometimes came close to crying but I could never let go fully and I would go numb and the tears would never come, I even thought that because it was so long since I cried that I never would again.

Yesterday I had been out for a few drinks with some friends, was a bit drunk, got home went to bed, had the laptop on, listened to some music and out of the blue I cried non stop for about a minute or two, the first time in about 30 years, the strange thing is I was in a good place, I had a good night and was happy.

Does anyone think this could be a sign I'm on the way to healing? I have wanted to cry for so long so I could release some of the hurt but it just wasn't happening. I'm actually glad it happened and feel quite excited it did, can't wait to tell my therapist.

 

[Changing4Best]

Does anyone think this could be a sign I'm on the way to healing?,I have wanted to cry for so long so I could release some of the hurt but it just wasn't happening,I'm actually glad it happened and feel quite excited it did,cant wait to tell my therapist

For the first time in thirty yrs, indeed this is good news and it is a sure sign of your case moving and healing, in my opinion.

I have cried for no reason, I am sure, I was in my 20s then and am 59 now. I was not yet diagnosed at that time, but I was beginning to realize that something was really wrong. It was a step in the right direction for me, though I did not really get into therapy until about 12 yrs ago.

Yes, tell your therapist and celebrate!

 

[franciemarnie]

Definitely a sign of healing! Hooray!

Your body/mind felt safe enough to cry. That's fantastic.

When I got off anti-depressants after 25 years, I started crying like nobody's business. I would sob in the morning for a long time and sometimes later in the day. It was actually kind of overwhelming at first because like you I had been too numb to cry for decades (with rare exception). Eventually it wasn't a daily thing.

Definitely healing!

 

[si2525]

Thanks for the response. I never thought I would be so happy about crying, it has been a slow road in my recovery but I need things like this to keep my spirit's up, I really did wonder if I was able to cry again.

 

[Britt.f7]

I've definitely cried for no particular reasons. I've had to explain to my children, when they were much younger, this happens sometimes and it is okay. They learned to accept it without blaming themselves. Of course, late in 2012 I had quite a crying jag everywhere I went, but I was in the depths of depression and it was horrendous and not okay. Thankfully meds helped. But this is not what you are experiencing, so that is wonderful.

It sounds like an opening to you. A fresh start. This is good.

 

[arfie]

I also took it as a sign of healing, mostly because I felt SO-O-O much better afterward. It felt like those tears had carried away toxic sludge I sorely needed to purge.

Decades later, I still can't cry at "normal" times. I think I was trained that the more hurt I was, the greater the punishment for crying would be. So or no, tears definitely hold healing strength for me, whenever they come.