Csa Survior W/ New Ptsd Issues

[goodrobot]

I was raped by my father, his chums, and my stepfather. My mom and my dad both ultimately committed suicide. My current life has been stressful with harassment and some stalking I've been struggling with renewed PTSD issues. I hate all of this new/old symptomology, but this is the world I've got, so I'm going to have to make the best of it. I'm struggling with the hurt and the shame and the guilt. I am so weary with everything. It hurts me that my father's big "dream" for me was to be a dual hit man and prostitute; that was his big job training plan and that is what he put into place for me. Sigh. I am just tired, scared and it is hard to be optimistic and live with the sense of doom all the time. Patricia

 

[TSG]

((HUG))...it seems pretty small but it's all I have. Very sorry for my inadequacy. You are safe to talk here and (I believe) you are among friends and sisters in pain.

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Patricia,

Welcome to the forum.

Sound like you have a lot on your plate. The only way to get through it all is one tiny bite at a time.
I hope you find some comfort here. There are many people who will understand you.

Regards
Lucy x

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

I am so sorry you have experienced all that. Start by slowly reading what you want here and then start by sharing your story if you want, it helps deal with the feeling that come up and still hurt you.

Take care.

 

[cherryblossom]

Hello Patricia - welcome to the forum. Take your time. I hope you will find this forum helpful ;)