Curse You, Taxes!

[Senecia]

La la la, doing taxes. Everything is fine! Okay, box b? I have that value..
Went through and it all went well. But the moment I couldn't find an exact value for one of my donations and expenses, I started to panic. Instead of it being a refund, it was a bill. Had to set it aside.
Okay, I'm not saying that I did anything wrong. It just crept on me unexpectedly because it was going well and then suddenly it wasn't because I just got too stressed.

I looked in my old emails to find a couple of digital receipts but stumbled across the names of my old professors, but just their names brought back guilt about college and everything.

I'll come back to it later. It's just I hate how it explodes all the sudden and makes everything feel impossible. I sit there reading through descriptions and numbers and I feel like I'm reading a foreign language and my mind blanks completely.

I can breathe now, sort of. But now I'm all cold and uncomfortable. I always get cold and shake after I freak out...

I imagine it like shaking a rug, where all the dust goes everywhere and you can't see. That's what I feel anxiety is like. It's so annoying! GRRR.

Okay I'm done. Hope you are all having a good day. Had to vent quickly!

 

[BlueAmber]

Keep your head up! Taxes are so stressful. And then running into college things that upset you is a double whammy. Try 4 seconds of taking a big breath through your nose, hold for a second, then release the breath through your mouth for 6 seconds, and repeat. Make sure you distend your belly on both inhale and exhale. I hope that helps ♡

 

[Senecia]

Thank you @BlueAmber! Those exercises help. :)

 

[Kintsugi]

I know this is belated. I just wanted to say I understand this lightning strike panic thing. I was avoiding my taxes to such an extent my friend grabbed all my info and did it for me.

(Edited for a postscript: last year this anxiety prevented me from filing at all.)

 

[joeylittle]

*raises hand*
I'm still avoiding.
Sigh.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I fear having to file.....and pay. Fortunately that stressor is a few years off.

 

[Senecia]

Guys, guys! I did them! I had to pay 200 dollars, but I did them! I even had to go to the college to get some financial stuff sorted out. I cried pretty much any time I wasn't in front of other people, it was really hard, but I did it. I'm proud of myself. I guess evasion actually helped me settle down in this case. I also brought my fiance to the office. Friends help. You can do it :)