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Do you feel better when you have a creative outlet for your dark side?
I am working on finding creative outlet, so I can't answer this right now.
Or do you feel worse?
I feel worse if I try to go dark side.
I got the chance to turn all that negative energy into something beutiful.
This made me smile. :)
I have stopped a gang rape of a young girl by charging like a crazy bull
Oh dear friend, I don't think you are dark at all. You gave those bad guys one of a hell. :tup:

You made yourself a shield to protect that girl. When there is sudden danger, you take whatever you have to protect yourself/others and that is the best thing. I admire your deeds.
 
I'm not at all at peace with my dark side. I don't understand how you're able to cope with it. I've wanted people dead. Yes, people who'd hurt me, but still. That's not a nice thing to wish for. In regard to creative outlet, I haven't found one. My symptoms gets worse after violent movies and games, so I don't think that would be especially helpful. But i don't know. To those of you who are at peace with "dark side" - how did you accept it? How were you able to accept the bad things you've done/haven't done or imagined? I know rationally that wishing someone dead doesn't make me a bad person, but the feelings doesn't seem to keep up.
 
What a great thread! @WildMermaid :hug: *crunching her cookie and offers coffee and tea*

I love the darkness, I always did. I'm also addicted to creepy things - no splatter, but creepy. :ninja: I love dark stories (old fairy tales or books) and when I travel, I always try to take pictures of skeletons. I once went through a very old dome and just took pictures from all skulls and skeletons around. :p I feel connected to the darkness and I feel connected with my darkness inside myself. I don't equate darkness with something bad. I also don't feel like a bad person only because I embrace the darkness.

I think the darkness is fascinating. I'm really adjusted at the surface and nice and calm...but when people get to know me better, they will see that I'm quite dark. I love dark humour, I love dark stories and I also have rather dark thoughts in my mind. I release most of them in creative writing and role play writing with my best friend (we've got our own little universe...and most of the really f***ed-up guys...were my idea...:p). I also release it during sport when I go farther than I should and during sex which does not happen too often. But the darkness is connected to wildness and leaving society's norms behind for me, it's freedom.

The darkness is my safe place. It shields me from others views.

My best friend believes that people have some kind of "shadow" inside, some counterpart, like some kind of hidden force. She also says that some peple's shadow is more on the surface than others - and that mine might be really close to the surface. I understand it as a compliment. :D The darkness ain't my enemy, it's one of my best buddies. :ninja:
 
@Anrish , very cool. I grew up where Edgar Allen Poe drugged & drank (ahem- wrote) in his last years and was buried. As a teen we would all gather around his grave site in the country at midnight for Holloween, play music and party. Much of my art, photo projects during my younger college years involved metamorphosis art that allowed intergration of cultural diversity, child to woman freedom from oppression and grounded in earth while becoming opened to possibilites within the workforce as well as education. I won scholarships on it for my Masters...but I turned to accounting to feed my son.

Ok, a dark thing that I did. No excuses...I was naughty.
My son's father had a ongoing secret affair the whole time we were married (navy guy). I found out.:bawling: He said deal with it and refused to recant nor promise to be faithful. :devilish:

I called and set up an appointment for a therapist and asked for a woman doctor inorder to go over the darkside of rape, incest, beatings, being a hostage- ect. She canceled our first session as she was sick and put in this guy as he was new Marriage Family T in the practice. This is the truth now...he put himself through college being a Calvin Klein model. (I lived in CA.). I fell out ...of my mind and in a short time my son and I were living at the therapist home as a family.:facepalm: As the lust wore off and the shrink community was in an uproar, x-H now suing for malpractice as it ruined 'my' fidelity (not his affairs mind you)...I went back to x-H to file for a divorce while there.:( So this is where I learned about Carl Jung from my favorite mistake's bookcase full of psych books. Ah to be young, beautiful and in lust (cough) I mean love.:notworthy:

See everyone has a shadow side...ooh la-la!

@WildMermaid ...hugs for your headache.
 
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Dear @WildMermaid ... thank you for this thread.

After being here on the forum for a bit, as well as the tolerant compassion of the group- I am learning to embrace myself more in acceptance. I have openly shared on this thread aspects of myself not previously discussed my whole life except in therapy. I feel freer ... albeit embarrassed ...but more open inside, lighter.

I thought I was encouraging you as I deeply feel connected. However, on some level- I guess I needed to feel safe among this group of wonderful souls. Thank you for listening, not judging and being present. :hug: Gratefully your friend~
 
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hug_in_the_mail.webp Here as nice as you are and with all those hugs- you could these! You are most kind, thank you...very much.
 
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