Depression

[Deleted member 37066]

You can't just decide to move on from PTSD. It doesn't work that way.

Trust me, I understand that. My post was somewhat sarcastic. But ultimately it is what it is. I am not here for a damn argument on wtf it is or isn't. I'm saying how it is.

 

[EveHarrington]

Ok peace out.

 

[Deleted member 37066]

Cures don't exist so stop looking for them. The treatments that can possibly cause full remission...

I don't fear change though. All I've done is change. An continue forward despite falling back. An I told Deadman to move along not you. If you are ultimately here just for argument then well what do you expect?

 

[Deleted member 37066]

I think basically this depression doesn't even completely stem from PTSD it also stems from the fact that the world deny's and rejects the truth.
And this quote says volumes:
"Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it.." - Ellen Goodman.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@ade May I ask why you don't feel that you can get better? I will be 64 in a few weeks and I've had PTSD probably since around the age of 10. Growing up, teens-early adult hood were awful. Drank, did pot, stupid behavior. Had sex with whomever I felt like, did really risky stuff. Just out of control. Symptoms were too. Anxiety, flashbacks, depression. Etc. I've been hospitalized (sectioned) many times for some pretty serious suicide attempts.

I'm not going to tell you that life is wonderful but.... I'm so much better. After my last attempt several yrs ago, I did some serious digging into my life to figure out what, why, and how I could change things, so that I could manage my life. I had to change a few things, and I had to learn to stop taking things so personal too. Shit happens.....

I totally get the, it is what it is...... I also know that PTSD doesn't have to consume someone's life... I hope that you can find some balance and that things will be easier for you.....

 

[Rani G2]

@ade

world deny's and rejects the truth.


And this quote says volumes:

I think I can relate to this, maybe or I misinterprete.

When I think of a certain kind of demand that is being placed on humans to to adjust oneself in a culture, a society to somehow function, being a “useful“ candidate in a perhaps toxic environment, many will protest “Oh well one has a choice, we are no chess piece which can be move around, we alone have it in our hands, we alone must go through“. That is true to some extent, and why shouldnt humans think that way? Hope is needed, but I also believe that there are limits, conditions that cannot be changed by constant psychologisation of an individual misery, because behind that also lies social injustice, inequalities, that needs to be seen by the collective to truly change.

If I missed the point, just ignore.

 

[Deleted member 37066]

@PURUSHA
Yea exactly. Well put.

@ade May I ask why you don't feel that you can get better? I will be 64 in a few...

It's not that I don't think I can get better it's that I've tried and through out the years I've noticed that I'm just stuck with deaded emotions and depression. I do things and I continue to try new things to help but there are some things in life that you just can't get over. When I think that I can get better I end up tricking myself that I am cured and then a bad day hits and I realize that this stuff will always be with me.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@ade While I understand what you are saying.... There is no cure for PTSD. None, nada. The only thing that has been proven so far.... Is when you work THROUGH your trauma. Really tear it apart, all the emotions, thoughts, and feelings along with therapy and sometimes med to help.... I don't do meds. (Have tried in the past and most are just shitty, IMO!!!!) You can get better. Depression is a huge part of PTSD, and shit happens. Bad days happen even to people that don't have PTSD. It's HOW you deal with that bad day, that tells how you will feel down the road.

 

[joeylittle]

@ade - I'm wondering, what is your diagnosis? And what kinds of treatment have you tried already that did not work?

I think there are different ways you might move forward, but it depends a little on whether you have PTSD, or Major Depression, or both, or something else....depression comes along with a number of other mental illnesses, and it can also be a primary or co-morbid diagnosis. When it's the latter, there are different ways one can approach it.

So, hoping for more information.

 

[Deleted member 37066]

I am diagnosed with PTSD, PTSD comes with the other range of mental illnesses such as major depression etc...

As far as treatment, its been as it always has... medications which hold zero proof of fixing a damn thing just putting a bandaid on problems that need to be addressed when off of them regardless. Tried a little bit of therapy. I don't have problems talking about events that transpired these days. But this world is shit.

 

[joeylittle]

just putting a bandaid on problems that need to be addressed when off of them regardless. Tried a little bit of therapy.

So, was therapy at all successful for helping you address those problems?

Was it a question of working through trauma memories, or of shifting negative beliefs about yourself and the world?

 

[Deleted member 37066]

No, you know Therapy wasn't really a help it was just very brief once or twice an the majority of it was spent talking with the pill prescriber.
Who once he found out that I killed somebody said, "Well... that's never going away." So here's these pills lol.

It was a question of working through the trauma memories because for years after the fact I would wake up an any down time was spent mentally trying to suppress these images of this man in a field. And come to terms that I was in fact a killer. Then there was the negatives I had to turn inward an I suppose the good therapy that others got an shared through videos or forum posts aided in my own battle of course.

Then there was the facing the evil in the world and the darkness that its visible to me but many people are completely blind. When you live in integrity and honesty and the world around you is one big f*cken lie its pretty depressing let me tell you.