Depressions 'r' Us

[Little Flower]

No. I intend to live out my life as a bitter old woman

 

[Little Flower]

Even my lifeline this chat room is gonna be taken away. I'm just alone. I drove him away too. It's for the best. I'm too much to deal with

 

[joeylittle]

@Little Flower, well I'm sorry about the bitter part but glad that you intend to live out your life. Anyway, anyone who gives the "you have to move on" speech should try it for a day themselves, I think.

 

[Little Flower]

Why would I hurt myself when everyone does it for me?

 

[joeylittle]

Even my lifeline this chat room is gonna be taken away.

No - not at all. But you need to remember that some of the strongest support you can get in chat is through being distracted by others. And you can use all your posting resources here to put the painful stuff down in words, try and exorcise it from your system somewhat. I am truly so sorry you are suffering - but I don't even really know you and I feel confident saying you're not too much to deal with. You're a human being.

And if it's OK, I'm sending you a massive hug.

 

[Little Flower]

I really want make myself puke. Perfect ending to a perfect day

 

[Little Flower]

No. I've been a burden since the day I was burden. I won't chat anymore. I'm not sure I'd ill diary anymore. I just wanna puke up all the evil inside me. Then I feel more like the empty shell I am. Told my bf to go find a girl who's not sick n make a happy life. I will never recover from this. I have no will to get over it. I'll just let it consume me like kudzu covers a house till no one realizes I'm still here

 

[Little Flower]

Born*

 

[Little Flower]

Thanks joeylittle and namenotdiagnosis. Thanks for calling me on my ideations.
I'm sure you both know about the roller coaster riding. I don't like coasters anyway, especially the mental ones. I'm try to find what Albatross calls balance. My T said I would be like a pendulum for a while but it would get less and less severe
I hopes she's right a no one pushes my pendulum off the scale :)

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

Little flower you are not sick and you will get over it, your a lovely person please don't be hard on yourself. Your definately not a burden and if your boyfriend wanted someone else he wouldn't have chosen you! Please don't be down on yourself, we all have good days and bad days but you can get through x big hug x