Diary of a madwoman

[Teasel]

Hi @Slushie :)

Sorry to hear you're worried :hug:

 

[littleoc]

I hope not. I would be worried too, but maybe it's just fear and nothing will happen. :hug: :hug: :hug:

 

[Slushie]

Thanks Berlinda and little oc, I hope they'll just stay away now. I think I'm going to see about getting a sort of restraining order, just in case.

 

[Teasel]

Sounds a good idea to look into just so you know how it works if and when you decide to go for it. :hug:

 

[Slushie]

Definitely, and especially now because yesterday their sibling I disclosed to emailed me and now says that I must be confused about my own memories. They have threatened me, given me an ultimatum of two weeks to confront my abuser. I told them they are gaslighting me and that I am not confused and that I don't want contact with them either now and I will get the police if they continue to harass me. I am glad there is evidence of what they've said to me.

This is what I get for speaking my truth? ?

 

[Teasel]

Sorry to hear @Slushie
Was your abuser's brother closer to you than his brother? I think it's pretty common for people not to believe abuse happened unfortunately :hug:

 

[Slushie]

Thanks Berlinda, yes, definitely closer, they were practically joined at the hip many years ago, I had thought their relationship was not so close anymore. I think it is too hard to hear about the abuse. I have made it clear if he harasses me then I will be contacting the police, then he said how dare I threaten him with the police. I have replied and let him know that I won't be in touch again and that I can see now he is a toxic person. What a horrible person.

 

[Slushie]

Kind of doing OK, sleeping tonnes and unsure if it's because I'm calmer? Or if it's all the stress catching up on me. Or both?

Not been contacted and I'm happy about it. Lawyer has a good plan in place for if they do contact again and that makes me feel good.

Been keeping up the self care too and even done some drawing which was relaxing.

 

[Still Standing]

Good job! You took control and did what is best for you. I understand the relief. I broke contact with my brother who was my abuser and it is like someone untied me. I, too, feel calmer. Yay for you! ?

 

[littleoc]

He could be in denial, but don’t worry about him. You’re doing what’s best for you, and you know the truth.

Hugs for you. :hug:

 

[Slushie]

Thanks @littleoc and @Still Standing :)

This is definitely the right thing I have done. I also have been watching a man on YouTube whose parents abused him and he explains narcissistic people and going no contact so well. It is good because he says we can pull through it, he is living proof!

He talked about how they project onto others and hate to see others happy, it makes so much sense.

I think there definitely is denial, maybe even fear. It's no longer a secret and although I wasn't believed, it is a big weight off my shoulders.

Yesterday I spent a lovely afternoon with a group of people who I had met previously, it was so much fun ? I was going to cancel but I pushed myself to go at the end and I am so glad I did. It is quite bizarre to me because these people clearly like my company (and I theirs) and it feels so unusual but lovely at the same time ? I'm still feeling happy today!

 

[Mach123]

I love your title so I want to say hi and I like what you've written so far. It's a long road. I thought (think) my mother abused me sexually but I'll probably never know. Everything points to it. Then she abused me again when she remarried. Eventually I ran away. My point is I had those people in my life because my wife made me. We didn't know about cPTSD or sexual abuse in those years. So it's hard to get rid of your family and walk around going "you abused me." Of course they say you're crazy. My mother got turned out on the street with nothing and my wife went and got her. I would have left her. Everything that happened happened.