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did you write this for me? I am finding so many posts on here describing me and others come along with the same thing happening to them. I was a domestic abuse victim almost 3 years. My first boyfriend was this guy who went around shooting people houses up and even shooting them. He walked around with a machine gun on me and I lost my virginity to him at the age of 12 (biggest mistake). I do not trust no man at all. In fact I picture the guys I date to be faithful to me because I have this dream of a wedding and a future. I would be such a nice woman to them and to every last one of them. I can't handle relationships unless I get counseling for it because I go by everything the wrong way. I didn't realize i was repeating the same thing around me. my life is like a revolving door of the same repeated stuff around me not even realizing it. I only dated 3 guys in my entire life and I am 23 years old. I am not like my mom. my mom brought tons of different kind of men around me when I was young. I can't even tell you the last time she didn't have a different one in the house for money. She was using men for money and in 2012 I dated a guy who turned ex started beating on me for almost 3 years for his girlfriend at the time money. Her money set me up and nearly had me killed. I repeated just about everything in a trauma cycle not even realizing that I was.
