Dismissing the struggles

[Deleted member 31998]

I really trusted him. I know he means well.
Finally had the courage to talk about wanting to get assessed,
He responded with, "Why on earth would you do that? You know relationships deteriorate when one of the people gets a diagnosis."

Trying to explain how I felt, my voice went inwards.
So badly, it was the challenge of conveying my ability to define why and how a diagnosis can be important.
The most important concept being that it would help me summarize my feelings.
I don't want pills. I just want to know if there's anything wrong so I know how to work with it.

He said, "Everybody goes through this. It's called being an adult. Especially a responsible one."
If only my heart could agree; it didn't validate my feelings, it only made it worse.
I started laughing uncontrollably, then hyperventilating, then crying.
Now I'm scared to tell anyone anything.

I go back to being the girl who has it all together.
The overachiever.
The organizer.
The multitasker.

 

[Friday]

"Why on earth would you do that? You know relationships deteriorate when one of the people gets a diagnosis."

Ever heard of the Reverse Logic Fallacy?

It goes like this:

Sick people take pills.
If I don't take pills?
I won't get sick!

Um. Nope. Reverse Logic doesn't work.

It's not that relationships detioriate because of getting a diagnosis :facepalm: That's reverse logic.

Relationships where one person is doing badly enough to need a diagnosis often deteriorate.
If I don't get a diagnosis?
My relationship won't deteriorate!

Um. Nope. Still not working.

 

[Deleted member 31998]

Ever heard of the Reverse Logic Fallacy?

It goes like this:

Sick people take pills.
If I don't take...

That's just it. I don't rely on diagnosis. I just want to know if I'm okay or not so I know where to go next.