Do you ever feel like there are just no words...

[Mice]

This speaks so much to me... thank you for this. All the best for yourself as well

No only because even if I am talking about how I can't talk, I am at least acknowledging there is an issue I am having trouble discussing. My therapist is good to point out that even talking about my difficulties talking about abuse is progress. It was 35 plus years before I ever acknowledged it happened. So, even though it may feel slow, I am at least acknowledging the elephant in the room which is more than I have ever done. It gives me hope. I have really come a long way, yet I have a long way to go... Just have faith that you will get there and give yourself some compassion about how it comes out. No judging...even when you take a step back and can't find words. Just know that the acknowledgement is progress. Even saying, "man I am having a hard time talking about this today..."
Best wishes!!

 

[Mona]

I find it so hard to open up to my therapist about my experiences. We finally got to a point where I accep...

I have used stories as a tool to talk about my abuse. Sort of fairy stories. It's strange. I start writing the story and it takes on a life of its own - total fantasy. But then I share it and I begin to see what the pieces represent. Perhaps not actual events but emotional events. I also use art. You have to put aside any judgment about being good at drawing and just do it. Even stick figures. Again mine are often more symbolic than literal.

 

[Rumors]

Thank you @Mice. You too....keep posting here. It helps. Maybe starting a diary might help.

 

[Hidden me]

I have lived so much of my life in my head, when asked how I 'feel' about something, I just go mute...

I do understand where you're coming from my T always say you're back in your head when she asked a question and I just can't find the words to say, and it not that I don't know it its just that I cant speak, my words are trapped. within myself.
Sometimes I even answer the question in my head but I'm unable to verbalize it strange but true.
She even gave me the option of email her before hand but i refuse to I'm so self-reliance it's unbelievable I am so frustrated right now. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO OPEN UP

 

[ladee]

It will happen for you @Hidden me , sometimes we just take the chance that it will make sense or who ever is listening will give us a chance to rework it until we can get to what we want to say.... and it's normal to not want to open that flood gate.... not healthy, but normal for us.... it will happen when you are ready.... .... you can always practice here...I know how hard it is to be vulnerable... I call it the horrible "V" word.... gentle hugs,,, oh, and sometimes for me, the depression keeps me from forming the words and bringing them forth.... it will happen... and we will be here when it does... more gentle hugs..

 

[Hidden me]

Thank you so much for your kind words of support I really needed those hugs too thank you.

 

[anonymous]

I do not have any solutions for you, but wanted to say that I completely understand what you are saying. I made a similar post recently and received some good advice and confirmation that it is not so unusual. You are a bit more articulate and better at expressing your silence than I was. If you want to see the responses of the others, this is the post.

Therapy flunkie

 

[Mice]

I do not have any solutions for you, but wanted to say that I completely understand what you are sayi...

I will definitely check it out, thanks a lot!