Anon #1 here
Yes, it is strange to be having this conversation, and it is so sad too, I totally agree. However it is a very necessary conversation and also, not just for us, but for all the folks who are reading it, who are not able to communicate about it, for fear on so many fronts. I for one, was told that I would end up dead if I ever spoke to anyone about it at all, death by choking. This was demonstrated upon my person too, in a mocking sort of way, but it was made clear that the mocking part would be absent and the reality of it would be mine for eternity, should I open my mouth at all. I did not speak a word of it, even though I did not quite understand what death was, I was that young. I understood enough to know that it was really painful and bad. That was all I needed to understand to know that I had to keep my mouth shut. So now, even trying to tell my therapist about it and extremely difficult. I cough a lot when I speak about it at all. I am managing with writings too a bit, but this week's ones will be very difficult to show my therapist. Feeling reluctant, just thinking about it. I will be brave though! I have to be brave, to get better, right?
