Do You Ever Heal Enough To Stop?

[yoshixvx]

Oh, no I was not referring to Angel!

And yes, I agree with your interpretation (energy) - perhaps "vibration" isn't a concept that some people understand. But both pertain to the law of attraction and being mindful of what you focus your thoughts on (healing vs being stuck or hopeless, etc).

And to answer your question @Hashi, my life is a work in progress, just like yours and everyone else who resides on this planet. I am here for support and to support others, and like everyone else.. I don't respond well to condescension as a form of criticism, constructive or otherwise.

 

[The Albatross]

Like you yoshixvx, I have experienced the aftermath of suicides. When I was a Student Training Advisor in the military, and had two students do it, and when my cousin and my friend did so. It is, selfish in that when the act is committed, there is an inherent ability to see anything but the "self" and the pain/anguish/rage/guilt/shame.

I was a suicidal child and teen. I had "random suicidal thoughts" without the drive to initiate for a good while as an adult, in part due to medication side effects. I beat it.

I hope you do too Angel.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I actually tried it once with pills, got very scared and dialed 911. It was a horrific experience, I felt so ashamed, but the important thing is that I chose to live and it is not an option for me anymore.

I chose to reframe the whole thing and called it I needed to escape from the pain.

I relate to what you wrote and I empathize. Hang in there hun. You are making good progress. I wish I could take the pain away from you. It seems to last forever when you have been dealing with it for so many years.

It sounds like you have an awesome support system of which I am jealous. Good job. Thinking of you.

 

[angel2write]

Wow.

Presumably, @yoshixvs, you will never have a reason to post about anything negative or upsetting here on the forum.

Sending Hashi a (hug). Knowing even the small amount I do about what you've been through, Hashi... (eyes tearing up) I wouldn't want you to feel hurt for any reason. And the same goes for yoshixvx.

I don't know. Sometimes people's responses, like some of what yoshi said in this instance, strike me the wrong way. But I guess, with the load people on here are carrying, I just always assume that whatever was said was meant in the best possible way. And I know that yoshi really tries to say helpful things (and does often say helpful things). I mean, sometimes I try to say the nicest thing I can... and I end up hurting the person anyhow. And like Alba said, there was some good stuff in there. I agreed with some of it, thought some of it was a misunderstanding of what I said, and possibly I misunderstood some of the rest.

I just appreciate everyone who talks to me, everyone who responds to me, and I take any response whatsoever as a sign of love and caring, and try to give the utmost grace for the content. Usually it turns out that the people didn't mean anything but good stuff. And if we can all stay calm and talk it out, we grow in understanding and mercy for each other.

I would never have gotten to where I am without the people on here. I love you all.

 

[Tinyflame]

I hope you are feeling a bit better Angel (((((Angel))))) . That's really great you've identified what you have. :tup: